Rockhound,
That was a great post...I copied it and have been reading and re-reading it. This may not be exactly on topic, but my experience with grief and facing the truth was this: my mother died and I grieved her for 15 months (which I read somewhere is about the right amount of time) At. the end of this time everything came crashing down when I realized it (the truth) was all I lie re the UN scandal. I remember the absolute emptyness I felt when I realized there wasn't going to be any resurrection "real soon" and we weren't going to be together in Paradise in just a few years. So in essence, I started mourning my mother all over again, and the loss of my beliefs. And I hate them for it.
Kat