Welcome here Cantleave....but dammit man you CAN leave...and someday probably will be forced to. I doubted for many many years, and am a fourth gen raised in with extensive fam in of course. Sooo wish i had left in 1995....just too big a change when they took away my chance at "never growing old or dying...a special generation".......i never had many "people" issues in the org. as ya there are so many great people in it, and i choose to see the good in people not the bad....I had so many good friends..my issues were aways "teaching" that could not be proven by the bible
Why you maybe WILL/CAN/MUST leave: You did not say how old your kids are, but most kids today want more freedom than WT allows, esp. when they hit teenage years. Freedom to use the internet among many others. Chances are they WILL find the real truth someday. What are you going to do when one of them either gets in trouble in the congo or looks at you and says, "Dad, how could you have taught me this total bullshit all my life??...I cant do this anymore!"......it happens everyday. Or maybe your kid gets dfd.....what kind of a stand are you going to take if he is not at home? Are you ready to be shunned or looked down upon because to continue to treat him as true family??....Do you have any idea (i know you do since you mentioned how you did not want to df others and saw the trauma of not being judged "repentant") of the devastating trauma people go through...esp. kids when there ENTIRE LIFE AND SOCIAL STRUCTURE is taken away from them?!?!?.....Men on earth, claiming to be gods mouthpiece.......can do this to your kids. As awful as you know it is, you say you are willing to keep your kids and family in this arrangement every day...and it will very likely come back to bite you someday...and do even worse to the emotional well being of your kids.
Damm that judging ability is WAY to much power to be given men by other men!! Yet as long as you keep your kids in the org, feeding them lies just to keep them moral??.......then you are setting them up for a horrible fall. My son was dfd at 16 and the emotional trauma of losing all friends and grandparents shunning him totally is DEVASTATING!!!!.....Start saving thousands for therapy, cause some never get over it! Rather than think you cant leave because of friends and family, i would think you need to put things into motion to get them all free before it all hits the fan someday anyway. The longer you and esp. the kids are in......the more trauma will result upon wake up or forced exit....it nearly killed me at 45. I know you are new here, but when i read your post it sounded just like i was for ten years after 1995 and i sooo wished i had started the exit wheels in motion then....and saved my little boys from getting baptized...leading to one to df and one to full time servitude who continues to neglect his education......and believe me...trying to wake him up at 18 was toooo late for the poor kid....but i did my best and will not give up.........good luck friend and sorry if i came on to strong here, but it just hit so close to home...and i have seen what their judging has done to my family.....