so i just spent two hours making a reply...it got so long because of a letter i wrote my dad...i divded them into two posts...then with an accidental key stroke i lost them both....then i wrote another few paragraphs here like this one to explain....and ditto it happened AGAIN!....but it was all good therapy!!! losing them was probably holy spirit....
thanks for your kind words all and nope i didn't need any pity party...gone are those days.. Tthe whole thing was healing....WE AND THE FEW NON JW FAMILY THERE WERE THE NORMAL ONES!!!! laughing and getting caught up for the first time in over ten years...nothing moved me emotionally downward....except that the few people that showed up were mostly fossils...
and omg they picked some new song to sing that was a faint drooling mumble by the old faithful...it was torture as were the few words i accidently the antique speaker i accidently heard as i was taking care of biz email and surfing on my new razor max droid....sooooo funny when they try and say nice things about a pathetic slacker nobody had seen in years....i felt sorry for him as he stammered and tried to find some type of humorous anecdote to tell about her...."i remember how appreciative whe was when we rolled her fat self to the car when she could make the meetings once a year or so...and how she would always fall asleep during the entire meeting and fart incessantly...and nobody would wake her up!....chuckle/snort"
oompa....full of life and living large now...time to have some fun...and you can do that when you dont live in fear anymore....me and my boys are kickin jw ass in own special fun way....sure beats the obsession i had for trying to get people incapable of reason....and on the most important think in their life....not that they are unreasonable....but incapable of it....because the very meaning of the word involves considering many oposing viewpoints sometimes....reasoning is impossible if you cant look at both sides....man was i beating my head against the wall for five years???? REALLY?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!??.....................what a waste of time......soooooooo wish i had them back...........oompa