SJ,
I can't possibly argue with someone who claims to speak for God. No matter what I say, no matter what evidence I provide, you can always trump me by claiming that God told you otherwise. I'm sure you can see why continuing this discussion would be an exercise in futility for me, unless one of two things happens: (1) God starts talking to me (or I start hearing him, depending on your point of view), or (2) you provide me with incontrovertible proof that God is speaking to you. Unless and until one of those things happens, I will remain rationally skeptical. I hope you will at least consider the possibility that you are wrong - dangerously wrong - and seek the help you need.
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But if you pray all your sins are hooked upon the sky
Pray and the heathen lie will disappear
Prayers they hide the saddest view
(Believing the strangest things, loving the alien)
-- David Bowie, Loving The Alien