as most of you now know, i do commercial janitorial for a living !
lol!
especially after seeing the thread i posted today !
I haven't been physically hurt while at work but have been mentally stressed on numerous occasions. When I was working in care, looking after elderly patients with senility, we were always short staffed so the pressure was enormous. The work load was far too much but what upset me the most was that I couldn't give the patients enough personal attention.
Maddie
mincan has relatives visiting this week-end.
he is happy to see them but knows the problems associated with their visit will be hard to deal with.
you see, these relatives don't understand how difficult it is to come out of the cult and move on.
Love and support to you too Mincan
Maddie
i'm having a minor outpatient surgery in the morning in charlotte.
the hospital just called me and asked me how i felt about blood transfusions and if i had any religious beliefs that would hinder my medical care.
they still had listed from years and years ago, that i was a jw.
Good luck Baby girl. I will be thinking of you
Maddie
i didn't!.
i didn't even know i was supposed to.. does that mean my baptism is invalid and i am not a jw?...
if only.. -ootb.
Yes I did with deep sincerity
Maddie
last year jesus, this year the spirit, what will next year bring...imitate the angels lol
more info to follow as it comes available
jwf
Some theme ! They are either extremely arrogant or totally deluded IMO
Maddie
we received a parcel for our boys today from besty's mother.
presents, photos (of seals!
) and a card addressed to them asking for some photos of them!
((((((((sweet pea))))))))))))
This is such crazy behaviour which probably hurts them as much as it does you. I would feel like you do - wanting to show them how it makes you really feel but at the same time not wanting to act in a mean way. As it will have to be you who writes back perhaps you could thank them on behalf of the boys, but add that you would really like them to have a proper relationship with their grandparents. Of course to do this would mean respectful contact with you and Besty. Just a thought because I know how horrible it is for you all.
Maddie
about twelve months ago i came to the realisation that i am an alcoholic.. for the past year i have been having breaks from the drink of about a week at a time but as i cannot deal with stress well i always seem to turn to alcohol as an escape.. i have realised the last few weeks that i need help to stop drinking but do not want that stigma of attending aa meetings or getting counselling for my addiction.. yesterday i decided to phone the aa and so attended a meeting last night where i found to my surprise many people who were going through the same process as me but had decided not to carry on turning to drink.. i dont know if many in the us understand the culture of drinking and pubs in britain?
but it is an integral part of uk society, friday and saturday nights are all about going out and having a good time drinking as much as we can.
so for an alcoholic it can be a nightmare.. i just wanted to share this with and would like to continue to post in the future about it.. yours paul.
Hi Paul - I remember the first time I went to an AA meeting and I was full of fear and preconceived ideas about the people there and what it would be like. Like you I was amazed to find that everyone was very "normal" and kind to me. When I listened to people shaing their drinking history and how their lives had changed since going to AA and doing the recovery programme it gave me so much hope. I found that no one judged me or thought I was a weak/bad person but told me I had an illness, and is accepted by the Medical Proffession as such. I kept going back and have been going now for several years. I haven't had a drink one day at a time for several years either so it does work.
You have taken a very important step and I wish you a wonderful journey.
Maddie
common issues in post-cult recovery .
sense of purposelessness, of being disconnected.
they left a group that had a powerful purpose and intense drive; they miss the peak experiences produced from the intensity and the group dynamics.. depression.. grieving for other group members, for a sense of loss in their life.. guilt.
Mr. Flipper - It helps others to see what they are going through so as to understand it as well Thank you, I think if people know that they are not alone in having these problems it helps too. The anger directed towards oneself is something that I do at times.
Billy the Ex-Bethelite - I still have the depression, but now that I can recognize the symptoms, I relate them to the medical condition rather than some personal flaw or weakness I beat myself up for years feeling that I am flawed and a bad person. I know differently now but I can still go into that mode of thinking when I am depressed.
Homerova - Thank you, I'm pleased you think my post is beneficial
Maddie
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for those of you who don't know what it is.it's a form of the chicken pox virus.after you get chicken pox as a kid the virus goes dormant in your nerve endings.most people never have any problem again with this virus.some people like me get the shingles.the symptoms include pain in your nerves.a rash that looks like tiny blisters.aches and flu like symptoms.and many others.i am contagious to people who have never had the chicken pox before.especially small children and pregnant women.you can't get the shingles from me but you can get chicken pox from me.. i have this stabbing pain in my back which i thought was a pinched nerve.i also have a thing on my back in the spot where i thought i had the pinched nerve that i thought was a spider bite.the pain is radiating around my side to my right breast.my right breast has been burning for 3 days now,about the same amount of time as i've had this spider bite looking thing on my back.i chalked that up to time of the month.this "spider bite " looking thing is on my right side.i'm having aches and pains like i have the flu.i don't feel good.. i asked my boss's mom to look at this bite thing and see if that was what it was because i've never had a spider bite before but i know they can get infected really bad sometimes.i didn't put 3 and 3 together with the nerve pain and the burning breast and the spider bite thing.the other girl i work with was there and she said it looked to her like shingles.i freaked out because i've had them before but not since i was a kid i was 10 or 11.my boss has 3 little girls i thought might be able to get chicken pox from me through contact with him.
so i called a nurse answer line at the county hospital to see if that could happen.i told the nurse what was happening and what had been suggested to me might be shingles.she told me i needed to get my butt to the doctors in the next 24 hours for anti viral meds.that's the only way to clear this up quickly.otherwise i'll have this for months possibly.the nurse then proceeded to make an appointment for me tomorrow at the next available clinic in there system.she also made an appointment for me to get rated on a sliding scale to pay for this treatment.. stress brings them on so does weakened immune system from illness.i have both right now.i'm sick and i'm overly stressed at the moment.sigh..
Hi Noni - I have had Shingles a few years ago. I believe there are several places you can have the rash, and I had mine going half way around my torso in a line. I remember feeling very tired and found any exertion quite draining for a while afterwards. The doctor will be able to help you with medication so the sooner you go the better.
Take it easy and get well soon
Maddie
as jw's we were taught that almost everything was bad for some reason or another.
xmas, birthdays, lucky charms, watching r rated movies, not going to meetings, .
going to college, liking sports, etc.
I got to agree with Gopher about the WT leaders being just like the Pharisees in the Bible. Amazing how they criticise the Pharisees but are doing exactly the same the hypocrites!
Maddie
