I just finished reading the replies. Wow! I think my situation struck a cord in this board. I promised to keep you posted, so here is what happened today: An elder called me and told me that he wants to talk to me before the meeting starts tomorrow. What do you think it means? Is this code for "We want to appoint you" or "we read this board too and you are fired"!? So, tomorrow is the big day.
Thanks for the nice words of the majority. Some of you agree, some of you don't, but you treated my with respect and I appreciate that.
I appreciate the advice also. IF I become an elder (Still thinking about it. It is not easy decision) I'll try to be careful and help others.
Now some answers to your questions:
Why do you accept it? you asked: Well, I think it will help me free my family. Is not the same thing to hear som real "truths" from an elder than from another publisher (at least from the JW mindset). Also, they know I disagree with many WT doctrines.
Is this a joke for you? The opposite. This is a very hard reality I am facing right now. I don't want to be in this position.
What about JCs? I don't know yet, but I guess I can feel sick and send another elder. I don't know yet. I hope it doesn't happen, but if it does I guess it depends on the case. A pedophile will receive a holy punch in the face from me and a police call. But, again, I don't know yet.
How about going with a bang? I will, after my family is free. You have to know that my family freedom is my priority here. But, I want to help as many people as possible.
What about giving talks, praying, comments, preaching? The congo already know that the way I do those things is somehow different. No worries there.
Do you want prestige? LOL. No. I just want to use this position to help my family out of this cult.
Can you handle it? I don't know. I hope so.
Something is wrong with you! Maybe, but something is wrong with you too! LOL
Will I beat people? No! I want to teach love and peace. Come on! Think about it. Why else, I am ready to do this sacrifice? I won't help falsehoods.
Well, I guess that covers the most FAQ.
Tomorrow is the big day. Stay tuned. And please, pray for me.
Your friend,
-ootb