That was a great post. Anyway, it's hard to put into words what it's like to be done with the JWs.... What's the old phrase.. "You can never go home again..."? You can't really long for the joys of your past, because if you were a JW, there probably weren't many especially if you were raised a JW. So, the common consensus is to just focus on the present and enjoy your life going forward. Except you can't, because everything you do now triggers your memories of your past because the JW cult had such control over every aspect of life. You can't help but think about it. Like I said in one of my very first posts on JWD that asking someone to "just get over" being a JW is like asking a rape victim to "just get over" being raped. It's not that easy. There is a long recovery process ahead. I know, because I'm going through it, too. I waited almost 10 years before I started talking, and I only started talking on JWD! 10 years is a long time to wait just to talk. I can't even really talk to my wife about this crap because she is not, nor was she ever a JW. She doesn't really understand what it means. To a person who has experienced starvation, the phrase "I'm hungry" has a much different meaning than it does to the rest of us. So it is with a JW trying to explain his experiences to somebody who hasn't experienced it. It's like trying to explain color to a blind person.
So, Oompa, talk all that you need to! I always enjoy your posts. It's so good to talk with other people that know what I'm talking about once in a while.