Thankyou all for your encouraging words. JW have a long tradition in my family. So, I really haven't learnt to make friends outside the org. And my wife does not care about teachings and does not have the power ( at the moment) to see it the same way I do.
BTW, I have noticed that there are some from the old H20 board. Maybe anyone remembers me as a JW apologist who i.e.had a real struggle with Kent about JW in the Third Reich some years ago on h20.