Thursday, February 12, 2004
I work up around seven thirty. I took a bath and had my protein shake for breakfast. I then left and went to San Jacinto for my Martial Arts class. I went to the locker room and changed into my Martial Arts outfit. As I walked to my class, I bumped into this girl in my class who I’ve had my eye on. She had her beautiful dark hair tied up in a ponytail and she was wearing this sports bra that showed off her flat little tummy. She also had on this glowing red lipstick that contrasted with her smooth ivory skin. After we said hello to each other she walked away. As she left I let out a sigh. Then the negative voice in my head said, “Forget it kid. You’re not the exciting guy who will sweep her off her feet. You don’t have the confidence that women are looking for.” I then went to my class. Man, I just can’t get into my Martial Arts class. I can’t believe how uncoordinated I am. I think that I have to practice my moves on my own as well. After that I went to work. Well, I didn’t have any costumers today. However, I did have two people who asked me questions. This one woman was interested in my doing her taxes, but she didn’t like the price for me doing her taxes so she turned me down. That’s OK. I spent my time doing my Chemistry problems and playing Spider Solitaire (I just have to quit this) on the computer. I left at four thirty and drove back to school. I arrived at San Jacinto early. I was about to get to my class when I noticed Sandy in the hallway. She was asking me about our pre-lab homework. Pre-lab homework? It turns out that our teacher had given us this assignment, but I wasn’t paying attention, because I didn’t remember our teacher telling us this. Anyway, I had about forty-five minutes and I was able to do my homework. I thanked Sandy for reminding me. I have to say that I am not sure what this means. When we arranged our date she blew me off the day we were supposed to go out. Now she is talking to me again. I don’t get it. What does this mean? Does she like me or did she just want someone to help her with her homework? Yeah, probably. Anyway, when class started I turned in my pre-lab work. After that we went to the lab. I was lab partner with these two girls. One of them is heavy set, but she’s cute and seems like a cool girl. The other girl is this beautiful hottie. Anyway, we did our lab. While we were doing our lab they were talking about hanging out at one of the girl’s house. They were talking about going to some dance club on the weekend and all their friends. Man, that is the kind of life I wish I had. Having friends, going out on the weekend, and being outgoing is what I wish I had. I really wanted to hang out with them. Of course two 18 or 19 year old chicks are not going to want to go out with a 30-year-old guy like me. Even if I were the same age as them, they wouldn’t want to go out with me. They were talking about guys while completely ignoring me. They certainly wouldn’t consider me to be dating material. I’m just the guy they say “hello” to, to be polite. (Although the cute little hottie did notice the name of my company on my shirt and asked me if I did taxes. I said that I did. She told me that one time she went to a place to get her taxes done and they offered her a job even though she had no experience. I thought to myself, “Well of course they offered you a job, sweetheart. You’re a hot piece of ass. What company wouldn’t want you working for them.”) I’m I the kind of person who would stir love and romance in a woman? Yeah, right! What a joke! Anyway, after Chemistry class I went home. Before that I went to McDonald’s and got two cheeseburgers, a McChicken, large fries, and two Apple Pies. One is for my sister and the other is for myself. At least food is one of the few pleasures I have in my life. I came home and watched some more of “Groundhog Day” on DVD. Right now I’ll go on the ex-JW site and then I will go to sleep.