The WORLD...
The JWs would have you believe that world is a frightening place...and sometimes it is. Especially when you've been living existing in cultic isolation for decades.
But it is also the place where the rest of humanity lives. It is the place where Jesus talked and taught, went to parties, fed people...you know the rest.
You live here too, Apocryphal. So go out into the world, and this time, really meet your neighbors!
Go to school.
Pick up a new hobby.
Become a teacher.
Get involved in your community. Or move to another, and get involved there.
Learn a new trade.
The point is not to be isolated any more. Go out and make a new life for yourself.
Remember, you're not alone. Your existence, your feelings, your life, they are important to us. We who have lost loved ones to the cult know what you're going through. We'll always be here to support you.
And pray for your family, as Mrs. Fiorini suggested, so they may see the real 'light' . Don't forget to pray for yourself as well; for guidance, and peace of mind.