Wow, this is all really hitting close to home. I'm scared too. I'm scared because the man I love, loves Jah more than me. I don't know if this will help you, but I try to remind myself everyday to love myself. Love yourself. Remember that you have value and have a right to happiness.
ILikeToThink
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I'm scared everyday...
by 4mylove ini'm scared everyday that i will lose my husband to this cult.. i'm scared everyday that i will offend my dear friend because of my bitterness with this cult.. i'm scared everyday that my husband will choose to go back to studying and become active again.. i'm scared everyday that my life will crumble after working so hard to build the wonderful relationship that i have.. i'm scared everyday that his family will eventually say that they cannot associate with him anymore unless he goes back.. i'm scared everyday he'll choose.
i'm scared everyday that i'll never have a family of my own because of this stupid cult.
i won't bring innocent lives into this shit.. i'm scared everyday that i'll give up.. i'm scared evertday that he'll be gone.. i'm scared they will convince him.
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My wife says "They miss you at the Hall"
by OnTheWayOut inshe comes home with "sis.
curious says she misses you.".
"tell her i am right here, a phone call away.".
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Everytime I miss a meeting (which is happening ALOT lately), I get a call from the sister I studied with next morning: "we missed you at the meeting last night." Ugh, those words make my skin crawl! It's really just a polite way of scolding you.
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WELCOME NEWBIES - all of you! Check in here, I'm losing track of you.
by AWAKE&WATCHING ini just saw the eighth post by botheyesopen.
i noticed aliciaj, dogaradodya, chicken little, cognac, hypnotic, mochalatte.. some have been welcomed and some have not.. .
we have so many i can't keep up so.... .
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ILikeToThink
Hi everyone. Still going to meetings, but this site helps me get through it until I break free. Read a little before a meeting and as soon as I get home. Helps sooooo much!
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Do you ever wonder if some of the elders you were exposed to,.... are here?
by restrangled ini always wonder my self.
the ones i knew were all so corrupt and most full of bs, and eventually thier kids too.....i wonder if they are on this forum.
it would be satisfying to know they finally came to!.
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ILikeToThink
it's funny you should ask. I was sitting at the meeting this morning, checking everybody out. "Who thinks this is BS?" "Who is on JWD?" This is what I do now to try and make meetings more bearable.
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What gave you the courage to say no more
by ILikeToThink inive been lurking for a few weeks and finally thought it was about time i joined.
ive never posted on a forum before so please be patient with me if i screw it up.
a little bit about why im here .
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WOW! Thanks for all the support, I really didn't expect this much. To put everyone's mind at ease, don't worry, I plan to run. I love myself and future children too much not to. The thought of raising children in this organization, ugh! no way! I was raised by parents who loved me unconditionally and I plan to do the same with my children. I can't imagine my parents ever shunning me and I would never do that to my children. It's just dropping the bomb and sticking to it that I'm having trouble with. I know my heart will be broken. I somehow have to find the courage to do it. but thanks for all the support and advice. It really helps!
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What gave you the courage to say no more
by ILikeToThink inive been lurking for a few weeks and finally thought it was about time i joined.
ive never posted on a forum before so please be patient with me if i screw it up.
a little bit about why im here .
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Thanks guys. I appreciate the input. Somehow, reading these experiences really helps! Junction-Guy, let me clarify, he is not my husband. He's my boyfriend, so no, no children together. (please, we haven't had sex in 4 years!) (wow, it's so depressing to express that) He won't marry me because I am not a witness. I think he has hope that I will one day come to my senses and get baptized. I have hope that he will one day come to his senses and accept me for who I am. We are both in denial. It's different for me than most here. No one in my family or any of my friends are JWs. He is the only link I have to witnesses. I would have quit a long time ago if it weren't for him. It's ironic. I use to believe in God until I started studying. Now I don't.
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What gave you the courage to say no more
by ILikeToThink inive been lurking for a few weeks and finally thought it was about time i joined.
ive never posted on a forum before so please be patient with me if i screw it up.
a little bit about why im here .
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Thank you! In Miami
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What gave you the courage to say no more
by ILikeToThink inive been lurking for a few weeks and finally thought it was about time i joined.
ive never posted on a forum before so please be patient with me if i screw it up.
a little bit about why im here .
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ILikeToThink
Hello everyone. I’ve been lurking for a few weeks and finally thought it was about time I joined. I’ve never posted on a forum before so please be patient with me if I screw it up. A little bit about why I’m here . . .
Almost 5 years ago I met a wonderful man. About 1 year into our relationship he informs me that he used to be a JW and wanted to return. He talked to me about the "the truth" and asked me to consider a study, which I did. Long story short, I studied, attended all meetings but have not been baptized and have never gone out in service. Since I’m on this site, I’m sure you can all guess why. I DON’T WANT TO BE A JW!!! It has come to the point where I just can’t take it anymore. I have been honest with him about my feelings, about not wanting to be a JW. And somehow, he always manages to convince me to try again, try harder. He claims he loves me, wants to marry me. I say he wants to marry the image he’s created for himself of me. Not me, but me with a bible in my hand preaching with him, going to meetings. I love him very much, but this I can’t do for him.
So I guess my question to you is, what gave you the courage to say no more? I have to tell him and I have to tell the sister that I studied with. I have absolutely no idea how to go about it. I imagine the sister has an idea something is up. I have been missing a lot of meetings lately. And it’s been 4 years and no "spiritual progress." I can’t take another meeting. I can’t sit there and listen to the BS anymore. Just can’t. Any advice is much appreciated.