" I do love jeehovah"
even as a jw I found it very difficult to love a malevolent malicious,spiteful, evil minded,poisonous,perverted , bloodthirsty, malignant,vengeful,so called god, I'm sorry mam but IMO you truly do have the morals of an alley cat and I see you remaining single for some time with an attitude like that, thats why I Ieft jehovah, organization and all. Get back with your so called "worldly" guy and dump all the ridiculous expectations and conditions and live your life the way you want to live it FFS.