Ahhhhhhhhh my sweetie Brookie...cry if you need. It's kind of therapeutic (spelling?). Lot's of times when I'm taking a shower or just before bedtime when pain is shooting up and down my legs because of my knees...I just let the tears flow. I feel better...well, alittle afterwards. (Though it's hell on your eyes the next morning).
You're beautiful, you have a wonderful husband (I may be a bit prejudiced here), two gorgeous and brilliant children. You have a home that you are making your own and a future without the pressures of being a JW...you get to raise your kids JW FREE!! It's may not seem like much...but I hope that these thoughts somehow brighten your day.
I love you dearly.
Mumsy