i finally put a couple of pieces together that have boggled me for years.. i would take my family to the conventions and assemblies and for some reason, my wife would always be upset or start an argument in the car on the way home, or in the week that follows.
i realize now that her frustration is that i am not the guy in the demonstrations.
you know, the guy who has the bestfriend/elder who always says the perfect thing and the guy is so humble and does this little talks-to-himself thing where he reveals his deep spirituality and applies the ever-so-wise words of his friend and after that life is just great again!.
I know how you feel. My ex-husband was always disappointed in me spiritually. Constant friction after every meeting, assembly, convention etc........
He now has a JW wife half his age that leads him around with a noose. He has to walk the plank 24/7 - she is an absolute religious nut.
i have severe clinical depression and right now, for whatever reason it is really acting up....
Youngbro - I am so sorry you are going through this. The sooner you get out of that cult, the sooner you will start feeling better. Let me know if you are on facebook. I would love to befriend you.
imagine boarding a bus with your family for a long anticipated vacation.
the destination is a place that is promised to be beautiful warm and sunny.
as you are boarding the bus you are given a ticket stub with several paragraph's of fine print.
Excellent!
for me i know it was because i was a reader.. i began reading books at the age of 13, this was in the 1950's.
because there were some serious family problems i had two escapes i could count on reading and associating with my friends at the kingdom hall.. as i devoured steinbeck, hemingway, wolf etc.
my world view expanded....it had to.
I am extremely social, an extrovert on every level. In dubland this was a handicap. In the real world it has so many advantages. When I realized people enjoyed my company, it became apparent I was in the wrong group of people, making my escape easier.
according to the wbt$... the outside world is supposed to be a horrible place... .
the outside world hasn't caused me nearly as much grief,as watchtower world... outside world (5% grief).....watchtower world..(95% grief)... .
which has caused you the most grief in your life... the outside world or watchtower world?...
I had no idea how miserable I was in Watchtowerland. I simply thought it was the price we pay for being in this wicked system of things. Two elders came to my door a couple of weeks ago - it brought back such awful memories. They both had missing teeth, bad, bad suits and they smelled. When they asked if I have considered being reinstated - I about lost my lunch
watchtower and the woodshed .
today i uploaded to my blog an illustration from 1957 that had a serious impact on children at the time.
i remember those days.
No wonder so many witnesses disapproved of Dr. Spock.
i haven't been around lately on account of having been very busy the past few weeks, and it's only going to get busier.
this place gives me a needed sense of community, so i thought i would just check in to let everyone know what i've been up to.. one thing i've been up to is matriculating.
i'm officially enrolled in college now, and my first day will be august 15. i haven't decided for certain on my major, but my advisor said that it's my first semester so not to worry too much about it, i'm just going through general college education for now anyway.
So happy for you Johnathan!
well recently i got a long email from a jw in vancouver, she read my blog ( http://sochiolympicgames.blogspot.com/ ) and attacked me hard!
can anyone tell me what i am doing wrong?
my blog simply states the truth, she can't understand the whole picuture.
"The greater danger for most of us lies not in setting our aim too high and falling short; but in setting our aim too low, and achieving our mark.”
Michelangelo
hot enough for ya?
just thought i'd get that out of the way.
you knew you were going to hear that saying today!.
96 here in Boulder, CO. It feels too hot to even go to the swimming pool.
it seems that there is always one self-righteous idiot in every congregation that is like this:.
first, the person will find every opportunity to see how much wealth people have.
this wealth is in either time or material things.
So true! So happy to be free!
