after plugging in terry's hints I am sure it is sophia ( The hints where close to Nag Hammadi, Thunder , perfect mind) They pointed me to gnostic beliefs the primary one being sophia (also known as wisdom) the female face of god)
Thunder, Perfect Mind
For I am the first and the last.
I am the honored one and the scorned one.
I am the whore and the holy one.
I am the wife and the virgin.
I am the mother and the daughter.
I am the members of my mother.
I am the barren one- and many are her sons.
I am she whose wedding is great,- and I have not taken a husband.
I am the midwife and she who does not bear.
I am the solace of my labor pains.
I am the bride and the bridegroom,- and it is my husband who begot me.
I am the mother of my father- and the sister of my husband
- and he is my offspring.
I am the slave of him who prepared me.
I am the ruler of my offspring.
But he is the one who begot me before the time on a birthday.
And he is my offspring in (due) time,
and my power is from him.
I am the staff of his power in his youth,
and he is the rod of my old age.
And whatever he wills happens to me.
I am the silence that is incomprehensible and the idea whose remembrance is frequent.
I am the voice whose sound is manifold and the word whose appearance is multiple.
I am the utterance of my name.