It is not bravery myelaine, I am actually terrified . It is just what must be done .
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I am a bit poetic and sentimental tonight and could use some support
by recovering inonly earth wind and sky last forever they say.
the grim reaper has a debt he wishes me to pay.
i fear not death, for he is not a proud entity.
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I am a bit poetic and sentimental tonight and could use some support
by recovering inonly earth wind and sky last forever they say.
the grim reaper has a debt he wishes me to pay.
i fear not death, for he is not a proud entity.
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Thank you all for your well wishes and sage advice. It has helped me immensely in facing the next two days, and what I must do. Tonight we are having the whole family over for Christmas Eve (with the exception of my JW son.) I must put on a brave face for the sake of my family. I must steel my will and act happy and normal, in the face of the terrible secret I am keeping. I could not do so without your love and support. Thank, thank you, thank you all!!!
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Through a Darkened Pane
by compound complex inmy frequent walks these last few years about the neighborhood so familiar to me would ordinarily be construed a pleasant enough non-event.
a little mild exercise - taken in small doses to keep the joints operating properly - and a keen eye peeled for the ever-changing face of nature have rendered the daily promenade a suitable diversion.
until recently.
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Ah I have found solace in the darkness of the prose here.
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Words fail me right now, I was an honor to have known him.
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I am a bit poetic and sentimental tonight and could use some support
by recovering inonly earth wind and sky last forever they say.
the grim reaper has a debt he wishes me to pay.
i fear not death, for he is not a proud entity.
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My biopsy just came back I am happy to relate that the type of cancer I have is a neuroendocrine tumor and not an adenocarcinoma. If I have to have cancer of the pancreas then this is the best news possible. An adenocarcinoma patient's survival rate is less than 5% over 5 years. This contrasts sharply with the survival rate of a neuroendocrine patients survival rate which is closer to 50 % over 5 years. It was explained to me that this was because the neuroendocrine type of cancer is a much slower and more localized type of cancer. This makes it much easier to surgically remov,e due to it being less likely to invade sourounding tissue. I continue to fight. I am a very lucky man less than 2% of pancreatic cancers are this type of cancer. i know that I may be grasping at any bit of hope I can. Please indulge me it is all I have .
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I am a bit poetic and sentimental tonight and could use some support
by recovering inonly earth wind and sky last forever they say.
the grim reaper has a debt he wishes me to pay.
i fear not death, for he is not a proud entity.
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Grim reaper we shall battle to the bitter end
My resolve will not break though it might bend
Remember me oh ferryman of the river Styx
I have faced you before and your bag of tricks
You shall find me more than a worthy foe
My defiant nature I guarantee I’ll show
On eagles wings my spirit shall continue to soar
Though my journey takes me to a distant shore
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I am a bit poetic and sentimental tonight and could use some support
by recovering inonly earth wind and sky last forever they say.
the grim reaper has a debt he wishes me to pay.
i fear not death, for he is not a proud entity.
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Perhaps a higher power had something to do with you returning last night my friend. My resolve is strong and i grow more determined by the minute. Even if it is a long shot I have to set an example for my children on how to deal with adversity. I know I will eventually sucumb, I have no illusions, but I shall never allow them to see me surrender. The one thing I hope for Is that my son sees through the haze of witness rhetoric, and at least has a heart to heart talk with me ,while I am still strong enough to present honest facts to him.
Yes folks I finally posted a picture of myself, the tall handsome chap is my son
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I am a bit poetic and sentimental tonight and could use some support
by recovering inonly earth wind and sky last forever they say.
the grim reaper has a debt he wishes me to pay.
i fear not death, for he is not a proud entity.
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I feel a little stronger emotionally today. I decided to fight this insideous disease even if the 5 yr survival rate is only 5 %. I owe this to my family. I am aware this is not an easy road I have chosen, but I am strong. I know that I can carry on. Thank you so much everyone especially CoCo. Though we have never met, my friends, I feel a certain kinship with you all.
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I am a bit poetic and sentimental tonight and could use some support
by recovering inonly earth wind and sky last forever they say.
the grim reaper has a debt he wishes me to pay.
i fear not death, for he is not a proud entity.
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I know better than anyone the finality of death my friend and of my current situation. I stopped believing in fairy tails long ago. You see I am a medical proffesional. I know my chance of survival is abysimal. I need to fix what can be fixed and accept what I can not. I am just trying to get everything in perspective. We all grieve in our own way. This is mine . By grieving here i hope to spare my family some pain till after the holidays
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I hope my friend will come to this site and find the support and friendship I have found
by troubled mind inthis morning i sent a link to this site to a longtime friend .
she has recently stopped attending meetings and is being harrassed by the elders to talk to them .
her husband and children are not witnesses ,but her entire extended large family are jw.
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I am thinking about sending a link to my son after the holidays
