Journey On,
Good thread. Your self-imposed exile has bought out the best in you : <------ (teasing)
As Willie The Shake penned, "To thine own self be true". I try my hardest to live by this adage in all facets of my life, both creative and practical.
It is tough after years as a JW of being told that you are not good enough and that if you do not improve God is going to execute you someday, but this emotionally destructive thinking can be overcome if one merely learns to accept that, for better of worse we are what we are and that in many ways, everybody is everybody else.
Learn to love the things in ourselves that we once may have hated, learn to accept that this is who we are, and then we are better able to change IF we want to. I have a friend, a Jewish man whose family fled persecution in Europe during WWII and moved to North America. He ran a recording studio for many years, and we have much in common, but at 88, he is the biggest pain in the arse I know. Trouble follows him around wherever he sits, and he sits a lot. He was recently banned from a local resteraunt because he overheard the chef make a racist comment about somebody and stormed in into the kitchen and made a scene....lol. ( I hope that at 88 I have this spirit).
Despite what I might see as his flaws, both as a friend and as a human, I love him. I accept who he is and would not want him to change. He is a good-hearted man and always has been. Why should I want him to fit into my mould?
We must learn to do this with ourselves. Accept ourselves warts and all, then if we feel the need to change ourselves we are better positioned to control the changes, rather then let them control us.
HS