good question as I recently passed my 44th summer on the 3rd rock from the sun.
I see me... at the intersection of middle age and youth. I have a few long stories about quick decisions.... and as bad as the outcomes of some of those decisions are on the surface, I dont think I would trade any of them... the people and situations I have been in are part of my education...who I am.
I am starting to see a less conflicted soul. The WT years stole from me .....but I have some prime country to pass through in the future. I am starting to ask 'what is in this for me?" more often. Thats a good thing.
I know that I am right... and less willing to 'go to war' over that... let em figure it out on there own. I have to smell a rose.
I can still do everything I could at 25 with my body... but some of those things are not worth it anymore. I will never throw a baseball 90 MPH again, or swing a bat as hard or run fast again. "For a man my age" is creeping into conversation more often. But hey- If you cant do -teach.
I need to love better... and be a little more demanding of those who love me.... I gave a little too much and to the wrong people over the years. I learned a thing or two.
I look and like what I see.
Jeff