Thanks for all the comments, i hope one day i will be able to pray to god - if he is there, and understand what he wants - if he is there.
Thanks again
hi all on this forum.. i am very confused and lost and annoyed.. i was a jw for 28 years and then left not really believing and not really sure if there was a good or not, there was just to much hypocrisy in the kh and within the society.. dont be materalistic yet some pioneers seem to be able to have three cars and go on three holidays a year and somehow still make there hours.. the other point that really annoyed me was that my sister was treated like a criminal when she was dissfellowshipped which she was forced into, a elder would not stop coming to see her to convince her to come even if it was just for my parents, he said the only way this would stop is if she was to dissfellowship herself, now she was single living alone and saw no other choice but to do this.. so she was ignored and when she moved back to the scotland to get help with a wee one she had she did get help from my folks untill a elder reported them to the co and they had to stop.
now she was getting married so is no longer going to live in sin and my folks refused to go to the wedding as they would lose there position in the kh - despite that they decided to park outside the hotel so they could see my sister and kids go into the hotel and see them in there outfits, it is just wrong my sister was so hurt by this and her husband my best mate was so angry.
due to all that has happend over the year i dont know if i believe in god now,i would love to but i dont know how and whom do i trust.. .
Thanks for all the comments, i hope one day i will be able to pray to god - if he is there, and understand what he wants - if he is there.
Thanks again
hi all on this forum.. i am very confused and lost and annoyed.. i was a jw for 28 years and then left not really believing and not really sure if there was a good or not, there was just to much hypocrisy in the kh and within the society.. dont be materalistic yet some pioneers seem to be able to have three cars and go on three holidays a year and somehow still make there hours.. the other point that really annoyed me was that my sister was treated like a criminal when she was dissfellowshipped which she was forced into, a elder would not stop coming to see her to convince her to come even if it was just for my parents, he said the only way this would stop is if she was to dissfellowship herself, now she was single living alone and saw no other choice but to do this.. so she was ignored and when she moved back to the scotland to get help with a wee one she had she did get help from my folks untill a elder reported them to the co and they had to stop.
now she was getting married so is no longer going to live in sin and my folks refused to go to the wedding as they would lose there position in the kh - despite that they decided to park outside the hotel so they could see my sister and kids go into the hotel and see them in there outfits, it is just wrong my sister was so hurt by this and her husband my best mate was so angry.
due to all that has happend over the year i dont know if i believe in god now,i would love to but i dont know how and whom do i trust.. .
Hi all on this forum.
I am very confused and lost and annoyed.
I was a JW for 28 years and then left not really believing and not really sure if there was a good or not, there was just to much hypocrisy in the KH and within the society.
Dont be materalistic yet some pioneers seem to be able to have three cars and go on three holidays a year and somehow still make there hours.
The other point that really annoyed me was that my sister was treated like a criminal when she was dissfellowshipped which she was forced into, a elder would not stop coming to see her to convince her to come even if it was just for my parents, he said the only way this would stop is if she was to dissfellowship herself, now she was single living alone and saw no other choice but to do this.
So she was ignored and when she moved back to the scotland to get help with a wee one she had she did get help from my folks untill a elder reported them to the CO and they had to stop. Now she was getting married so is no longer going to live in sin and my folks refused to go to the wedding as they would lose there position in the KH - despite that they decided to park outside the hotel so they could see my sister and kids go into the hotel and see them in there outfits, it is just wrong my sister was so hurt by this and her husband my best mate was so angry. This cant be right?
Due to all that has happend over the year i dont know if i believe in god now,i would love to but i dont know how and whom do i trust.
Thanks for reading my post
so, i'm embarking on slow fade and i think it's time for me to start making friends w/ some non-jdubs so that i'll have a support network once i decide to be completely out and everyone ive ever known abandons me.
ive always gotten along much better w/ wordly people than jdubs so i'll haveno problem securing friends but im concerned about being to keep them.. i want out of the org for various reasons but i must admit i still believe many of the teachings.
i just think the leadership and organization itself is corrupt.
I have had no problems about making friends with the worldy's. I find it strange that so called friends dropped me like a lead balloon when i left the JW's, expect one true mate who i am sure has been getting a hard time for talking to me or even going out for a drink god forbid.
I am considering returning because i do believe that there is something i just dont know what, and i do feel out of all faiths they are the most genuine. They dont have everything right but as we are all imperfect who does?
anybody who has seen or have a scanned copy of the new tract, which is about to replace the "bible tract"?
I have not.
I am looking for some help though, i have just moved to New Zealand not been to a meeting for 8 years and am keen to attend the district convention here. I cannot find any information on where or when it is to be held.
Can you advise or tell where best to post to find out.