I'm going back to school now. It's hard tying to make a living in this old system without an education. I am divorced now. My wife left the truth and me to go have "fun". So now at 40, I'm supporting myself and my kids and going to night classes. Yes I do miss some meetings. and my service time is lower than I would like but I really have no other options right now. I did go to a university right after high school. But I got so much flack from the congregation elders about it that I dropped out after the first year. They even had the circut overseer visit with me, he encouraged me to quit school and pioneer. So I did. I met a pioneer sister and we got married a year later. I don't regret my time serving Jehovah. But I wish that I had been more practical about things. I was so sure that the end was comming that I never thought I would turn 40 in this system. I guess I should have taken that scripture more seriously about no one knows the day and hour. Anyway I still get pressure from an elder in my congregation. He has told me that I need to rely more on Jehovah and less on myself. But I look at him and he came into the truth after he got his education. He has a comfortable retirement now. I know I will be working till this system ends or I die, which ever comes first. At least there are a couple of elders who have been more supportive. But I have been treated differently since I had to step down from several service privalages. Why is it when things are so tough in life you seem to get the least help? Is that Satan? I really just feel worthless now that I have to focus on providing for my family. Maybe I should change congregations.