I wasn't quite totally hooked in,as I had issues with teachings! but came close,I think I might always have fear of the future,but not for death.I fear and hope this never happens,but I fear someone may push me too far and I might sock them one! I fear never seeing the people I care and love again! And I fear alzheimer's from all the weed I smoked throughout my years! Not to get off topic flipper,but if they come back ,how do I send them away without it being me rejecting them? It matters to me!
beerose
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I Live For Today - No Longer Fear the Future- After Exiting the Witnesses
by flipper inas some know here - i was born in the witnesses .
raised in it and stayed in for 44 long years !
i don't believe in armageddon.
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What's the worst thing the JW religion has done to you?
by lfcviking inonce having been a member of the jw religion and now that you have left, what is the worst thing that you realise it has done to you?
i.e has it left you mentally scarred?
has it left you with serious family trouble?
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LIED !
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by Sad emo inhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dyvjgerspe8.
i will pray for you now for you have been my faithful friends.
while the road we walk is difficult indeed.
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beerose
I loved the song too,thank you!
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Lurker for a long time, finally decided to take the plunge!
by Momma-Tossed-Me ini say this because i have been helped so much by the many posts that represent the way i feel about the wtbts.
it is good to know that there are so many people that feel this way.
i am currently inactive and dont comment but do attend meetings for the sake of the family.. my wife is still in and i have a daughter and one on the way.
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Big welcome
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"What kind of fool am I"
by mouthy ini was driving the lady next door to garage sales, i cant get out of the car cos i am not walking very well.
but it was on a very steep hill.facing up hill,when she got back in the car i tried to drive forward, it kept going backwards downhill,it was awful,i thought i would kill the old lady, she was as white as a sheet ( she is 86) so i shouted out to a man, " can you help me please " he ran over & while it was slowly going backwards (hand brake on, )he jumped in & said well you didnt have the motor turned on (blush!!!blush!!!!
oh i guess alzhemiers on the way
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Don't feel bad mouthy,when I was in my 30's me and my sister was at a bank cashing our checks,she was done first and drove next door to 7-11 while I was still in the bank.When I came out I jumped into the truck thinking my sister was still in the bank,and this guy comes out of the bank asking what the hell am I doing in his truckmy sister couldn't stop laughing the whole way home!
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Welcome sadfox,and stay awhile!
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do you feel posting on JWD helps or hinders your recovery?
by burningbridges insometimes i wonder if posting on this site helps me "recover" from the trauma that the witnesses put me through, and have no doubt it does at times.
no where else is there such a support team of individuals who know personally what you've been through and how you feel.
but at the same time, i often wonder if coming on here causes me to obsess in a way, preventing me from "moving on" with my life.
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beerose
Splashing my personal pain all over this forum,so that the lurkers seeking to find their victims,can read them,and maybe feel the guilt,that they should be feeling! The pain I splashed here is only a drop of the real pain for me ,and for others who posted here! "Get over it" some may say,but when you have pain that goes so deep,you just can't ! All we can do is live with it,and hope we can put it away,when it is forced to surface!For some like my sister seeking for help got her dead at 44,for my other sister sometimes the meds help,for me I try to ride the waves.It is the anger inside of us that makes the words seem like an attack.For those who think these words are persecuting,it is not! It is just hateing what is bad! Hillary-step,lazy-good for nothings,try broke for a word! How many record of achivements do you have in your work files,throughout your life? Oh yeah,I forgot your records are stored in heaven,for the hate work you've accomplished! By the way who's accountable for teaching these children how to hate?
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do you feel posting on JWD helps or hinders your recovery?
by burningbridges insometimes i wonder if posting on this site helps me "recover" from the trauma that the witnesses put me through, and have no doubt it does at times.
no where else is there such a support team of individuals who know personally what you've been through and how you feel.
but at the same time, i often wonder if coming on here causes me to obsess in a way, preventing me from "moving on" with my life.
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beerose
some of us had enough,tired of being called a liar from the liars,and just need a release!
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My First Post!!!
by IreallydidwalkoutofaKH inafter a year of reading all of your experiences and expressions i decided it was time for me to start sharing some of mine.
hopefully they can benefit others, like many of yours have benefited me!
being raised in the wtbts, the jehovahs witness docrine and culture really was the prism from which all of my experiences and understanding of life originated.
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I heard the one about the smurfs coming out of the wallpaper,I asked her are you sure they weren't sliped some acid!
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3 REASONS TO BE A JW
by thebigdebate ini have a theory on why people become jw's.
there are 3 different reasons:.
1: you were born into a family of jw's.
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me sorta born in,grandma was JW mom never pushed but tried to teach it,later mom BJW,me run far away from it.Husband job moved us to s**t town where everyone seems to be mean spirited walk down the street and say hi to someone and thier nose goes straight up in the air!praying mighty hard for help ,no lie knock comes to door,who else but the JW's so then I start believeing they were lead here!Only to find them to be mean spirited too.(must be in the water)breakdown,then having to have surgery for cancer,while recovering sister flips out winds up in state mental hospital,come to find she was also abused and knew I was too,never knew that.I didn't tell her about my surgery because I didn't want to upset her,so she died thinking ,I didn't care enough to go see her! (WHO SAYS YOU'RE NEVER DEALT MORE THAN YOU CAN HANDLE)?Another knock on door stupid me telling them why I stopped going more meanness,and now I'm here!