i guess it only took three years, but they were hell in so many ways for both of us...she was not happy and lived in denial as much as possible...i was not happy and lived in a bottle as much as possible and glad that is over for me....but it was one of the saddest things i have ever experienced in my life....as was the visit to my parents before i told her....but yes...she said she kind of expected it...was thinking something was going to happen soon as she noticed i had more and more trouble saying i love you back to her when she said it on the phone at the end of goodbyes...and when i was leaving the house...i had noticed it for over a year and it was killing me..... i told her how sorry i was for changing so much again....and that she still walks on water...and is a great person and so pretty....and that she will be ok because she was happy single before me for many years and had all she needs for that again...her closeness to jehovah and her freinds in the congregation...she is very close to both and will be ok i hope...it was very surreal....very calm...very sad.
my bitterness and disdain for wt rules came through when talking to my parents and i was very open about how i feel as to their upcoming shunning of me, and how it feels to my son since he was just 17....and how the fear of losing them had kept me trying in my marriage for the past few years...dad was firm in his position of future action....mom said they will still always love me...and will still talk to me until i get dfd.....oh how this hurts.....dad said there is a name for people who only live for themselves and deny god but could not think of what it was....i told him i was not living just for myself...that i am a good person and there are values from him and the bible i hope i always have....i cry so hard as i type this and tell you just so you can know how painful this is....i told him i so loved the rule of treating others how you want to be treated and have always done that...even allowing myself to be wronged on so many occasions to keep peace....... he said that was a good rule....i agreed and said it was a big one too....and that while i could do it...treat him the way i would like to be treated...he would not be able to!.......left as i became emotional...big hug from mom, but i just barely put an arm on dad............oompa.
Dear Oompa
Thinking of you as you are going through this awful pain and turmoil at the moment. You really are a good, decent person who deserves to be happy and successful in life and I'm sure that through those teary eyes you can see glimpses of a happy, fun and fullfilling future waiting for you.
Stay strong and true to yourself, surround yourself with people who love you for who you really are, and you will come out the other end just fine.
All the best
Hopscotch
while at work today, a man in the office next to me had a heart attack.
the office staff were yelling for someone who knew cpr.
i thought to myself,' i know cpr'.
wow what an amazing experience QuestioningEverything. Well done and good on you for knowing CPR.
Hopscotch
info re: the new flu.
i went to a gathering last night, where i and other guests enjoyed copious.
amounts of alcohol.
Is there a vaccine for this flu?
Hopscotch
according circuit overseer, brother splane will visit spain branch, in ajalvir (madrid).
the objective is to sell the factory and the 450 apartment complex, how much money?
more than 1.000.000.000 euros!
They're sending Splane
For a visit to Spain
To cause more pain
To bring the WT gain.
Hopscotch
just thought i would share this.........a brother who used to be a mercenary before he came into the truth gave the talk at the hall yesterday and he said that the bible was like jehovah's cv.....it told us everything about him.....so we can really know him.. he also said with all the governments and all the rules and regulations in the world, and nothing working at the moment, we should appreciate that jehovah only has 2 laws.............love him above all other things, and love our neighbours..........if only the whole world obeyed those 2 laws there would be peace without the need for armageddon................so its all down to humans why things are going wrong.. if we abandoned the planet tomorrow the earth would repair itself and there would be peace and harmony in nature.......... man has really messed up.. thank goodness we have had the chance to know jehivah and have a hope for the future!!.
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It was many of the replies on this thread that I would put into the "brilliant" category.
Hopscotch
just found a letter from wt to my son acknowledging his letter to them asking for a bethel application and that is the letterhead at the top...and they signed it that way..........i have never heard of this!
!..........weird...anybody?.........i guess because it is about bethel they consider it like a convent or monastery?...................oompa.
oompa
*** yb95 5-6 ; Jehovah's Witnesses-1995 Yearbook Report ***
"Among the full-time workers were 15,145 members of the global Bethel family. They help to provide literature, supervision, and other beneficial services in support of the worldwide work of Bible education. Of these, 5,082 serve at the world headquarters in Brooklyn, New York, and at nearby facilities. All of them are members of the Order of Special Full-Time Servants, a religious order that is devoted exclusively to the ministry."
I believe there was a name change to this 'order' as in the 2003 yearbook it has changed a bit
2003 Yearbook page 30
"Worldwide, a total of 19,823 ordained ministers staff such branch facilities. All are members of the Worldwide Order of Special Full-Time Servants of Jehovah's Witnesses."
From what I gather it is purely for tax reasons. When they join bethel they take this "vow of poverty" which to me is laughable. Some of the minor plebs at bethel probably live in 'poverty' but the higher up ones (such as my BIL in the writing dept) do not live a lifestyle which could by any stretch of the imagination be called poverty. More like jetsetters.
Hopscotch
Hi from Brisbane
Hopscotch
thanks for your kind help...here she is, my darling...pls follow the link.
http://img217.imageshack.us/g/java3.jpg/.
lisa, what's your cats name?
Newborn your little Java is adorable. Thanks for the pics
Hopscotch
Newborn I think you have to upload the photo to a photo sharing site such as Photobucket. That's the one I use and it's quite simple to do. Then once you have uploaded the photo click on it and it brings up a box underneath or beside it called 'share this image' which has some url links. Copy the one that says direct link.
Then come back to the reply box on here and where you want to insert your pic in your message click on the little icon that looks like a tree. It brings up a box that says insert/edit image. Paste the url you copied off photobucket into the box that says Image URL. Then down the bottom of the box click the button that says insert. Then another box will come up saying you haven't put a description in or some such thing do you want to continue - just click yes.
That should do it.
Hope it works
Hopscotch
cleaning out two email accounts.
in my school email account, i had unread email going back to february of 2008. i had 1,500 messages total.
no, i didn't read most of it, but i did make a quick scan to make sure i wasn't deleting something important.
wow I feel so good after reading this. I now realize that letting my email account get to 100 or more unread emails is not bad at all. I am not the slacker I thought I was after all.
Thank you John Doe
Hopscotch
