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there is something really bugging me at the moment, and i`m feeling being on the verge of a big depression.. first of all excuse me for possibible language mistakes.

english isn`t my native speech.. during my approx.

9 years as a jw (including the 2 years of bible study), i never had one single date with a sister!!!

Adrianoblue

thank you all very much for nice comments. really great!

satanus, thank`s for the website. i`ll have a look at it soon. bye,, adrianoblue

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modern day adam

by Adrianoblue in

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there is something really bugging me at the moment, and i`m feeling being on the verge of a big depression.. first of all excuse me for possibible language mistakes.

english isn`t my native speech.. during my approx.

9 years as a jw (including the 2 years of bible study), i never had one single date with a sister!!!

Adrianoblue

hi there,

there is something really bugging me at the moment, and i`m feeling being on the verge of a big depression.

first of all excuse me for possibible language mistakes. english isn`t my native speech.

during my approx. 9 years as a jw (including the 2 years of bible study), i never had one single date with a sister!!! my local cong was located in a area far away from a big town. it felt like being at the ass of the world actually. well, anyway, the only potential hope i ever had during those years, was to meet someone at an assembly, which as most of you know, occurs 3 times a year. as an assembly came and went, and i didn`t succeed again, my selfesteem became even more lower than before. now i must admit, that i was a pretty shy guy at the time, so it was even harder for me.

now i`m not being selfpiity or so, actually things right now are working fine for me presently. i just i like to get this off my chest, because there is nobody who i can confess this to without feeling like a looser. i`ve been a former jw for about 5 years now, and i had one girlfriend since. thats a year ago now, and altough it lasted about 3 years, the last 1,5 years or so, i didn`t have much strong feelings for her in the end. i just had the feeling she wasn`t mrs right for me.

i dont want to get into much details about that relationship, in the end it just didn`t seem right.

now back into present day: although i have a lot more selfconfidence than i ever had before, and things are working alright for me (good job, positive thoughts etc.): i`m getting slighly anxious the last few days, that i might fall into that big black hole again i once was in.

the main reason for this is the fact that i believe to have many positive aspects others may not have: ok, i`m in my early 40ies so i`m not the youngest anymore, but i`ve heard around a few corners that i have good looks and i`m a kind gentleman type.

i go out on the weekends, been doing bodybuilding for many years and as i said i`ve changed my attitude and lifestyle completly. i once was a shy tall thin guy who woudn`t even establish eye contact with a female shop assistant without feeling embarresd.

ok, i`m still not an outgoing guy who would just walk up to somebobody and start a conversation. but at least i have more selfconfidence than i did in the past.

now you might ask yourself where my problem is. that`s exactly the reason why iM feeling on the verge! so apparently i have all theese good things, so why on earth is it so difficult for me to find mrs right??? why for heavans sake, even though i really try it my way, i dont succeed??? i`m frightend of loosing my selfconfidence again if something doesn`t occur whithin the next few months or so, i also know that this a phase, and i might feel ok again next week. but i`m fighting not to fall abck again, because i expirienced a depression once for many years, and i don`t consider going through hell again!

its so freaking strange.

sorry to bother you. it`s nice to know there are people and former jws who might know what i`m going through right now. i`ll keep you updated with my progression if you like.

thanks for reading. best regards from germany.

adrianoblue

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Questions Young People Really Ask

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i currently work for the writing committee of the gb and have been asked to write an update to questions young people ask funnily called questions young people really ask.. .

could you give me some questions to start exploring?.

w.

Adrianoblue

can i listen to black metal if i delete the lyrics? ; )

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boozing as a jw

by Adrianoblue in

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i got babtized at the age of 23. i was not a so called born in guy.

i started studying the bible at 20, and before that i never heard of the jw-religion.

so everything was pretty new for me.. to make a long story short: a month or so after baptizm, i felt probably lonley one evenig and got drunk right out of my brains.

Adrianoblue

thaks cantleave,

where did you get that information from?

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boozing as a jw

by Adrianoblue in

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i got babtized at the age of 23. i was not a so called born in guy.

i started studying the bible at 20, and before that i never heard of the jw-religion.

so everything was pretty new for me.. to make a long story short: a month or so after baptizm, i felt probably lonley one evenig and got drunk right out of my brains.

Adrianoblue

i got babtized at the age of 23. i was not a so called born in guy. i started studying the bible at 20, and before that i never heard of the jw-religion. so everything was pretty new for me.

to make a long story short: a month or so after baptizm, i felt probably lonley one evenig and got drunk right out of my brains. actually there was no specific reason other than i just got carried away. the following morning i woke up with an extremely bad consiance, and thought what a damned sinner i was! gosh, did i suffer from guilt! because of that, the following years i occasionally did the same thing now and again. i even secretly started smoking at one point.

for many years, i thought that i was the only one who did so. until i witnessed some other brothers overdone it with the booze.

so to my question: did any of you done the same while being a jw? i used to confess a few times, but it happend to often, so i didn`t bother in the end.

did you also have a guilty consiance during your jw-time?

adrianoblue

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what would...

by Adrianoblue in

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...the rulers of the new system do to a person who has there own religeous opinions????.

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...the rulers of the new system do to a person who has there own religeous opinions????

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The Second Coming of Michael Jackson

by What-A-Coincidence in

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the following has been confirmed by the witchtower bubble and trick society.... los angeles, ca, usa the numerous michael jackson sightings since his tragic death on june 25th gained credibility today when the jackson family finally revealed that the reason he has yet to be buried is that his corpse has been missing since three days after his death.. .

biblical scholars were astounded to discover that the previously reported "needle marks" on jackson's corpse were perfectly aligned with the wounds on the corpse of the previous incarnation of the messiah when the full autopsy report was revealed earlier this week.

even the scarring on jackson's scalp corresponds with the wounds left by the crown of thorns.. .

Adrianoblue

we read about all that shi** when elvis and jim morisson died.

all just blablabla.

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I'm perfect you're doomed: Tales from a Jehovah's witness upbringing

by superman in

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me and my wife just got this great book from the library entitled 'i'm perfect you're doomed:tales from a jehovah's witness upbringing' writtin by kyria abrahams (an ex-jw).

i'm not sure if anyone else has mentioned or read it (it's still fairly new), but it is a great book.

for anyone who was raised in the 'troof' or group up in it you will find it very interesting.

Adrianoblue

could you please also mention the book company and number?

thanks.