Over time I collected experiences and observations I had within the org and challenged some of these with elders who did not give satisfactory answers ,one main one was child molestation within the org ,how that had affected my wife ,and how the elders and the org dealt with it.
I found Bill Bowens Silent Lambs site and the door opened for me to explore the hypocrisy of the WTS in this matter ,and then in turn exploring the internet I found the answers to the doubts that had developed over time from my negative experiences from within the org
This led me to trace back in time the teachings and actions of JWs before the CD rom the WTS put out of their literature, it only covered after 1970. Of course it was a revelation, as before the internet there was simply so few sources to query anything JW teachings related. Depending on which hall you attended , the library there may only have newish publications so it was hard to find out and research the lies and perpetual changes.