When I was ex-communicated by the Jw´s a couple of years ago one thought ran through my mind. Had I commited the unforgivable sin?
I have willingly divorced my wife without a scriptual reason for it. I had good personal reasons for it, but nothing that the Jw´s would listen to. According to how I was thaught I have commited a sin, knowingly exactly what the Jw God wanted me to do, but doing the opposite.
I then fell inlove with another girl, did all the things you do when you falll in love knowing that the Jw God looked down at me and saw me as an adulterer...
After all this some people have told me that as long as I repent, God will forgive me. But I can´t really see how that could work. I can´t blame on temperary insanity, i wasn´t drunk or under any other drugs. I had taken several decision with both hearth and mind that went opposite to what i "should do". Isn´t that a sin that God won´t forgive?
Why Im asking this is that I find the thought-pattern quite interesting. I have no plans on getting back, and I no longer belive in the God of Jw`s. But I still have family in there, that refuses to talk to me, and Im still trying to figure out how some things became as they are.
Anyone with any pointers?