Ruth I'm so sorry I was in tears reading your post, I couldn't imagine!
For me it was the molestation of my 9 year old daughter by a very loved and respected ex-elder that sent us over the edge. The way we were treated by our "shepherds" at a most tragic time was shocking and eye opening! We really suffered as a family for a good few years dealing with a trial and the trying to make sure our child was helped all while we were devastated was the hardest thing we ever went through.
We are currently inactive and not planning on going back.