Eric,
Subconciously, if not conciously, you have been asking for this for a long time. Suck it up, take it like a man, and move on. The drinking, the womanizing, the apostasy, a d infinitum . You dodged a few bullets due to being a 4th gen JW, from a family of JW royalty. It didn't last forever.
Somehow you thought it would. Are you nieve, or just in your own bubble? I really hope you can get your shit together, and make a life.
Wishing you the best for the future,
JK