Hiya Castles man. :) Do what I do when I'm feeling down, head on over to the strip club.
Actually what you're feeling right now is very very normal. When I first left and moved out I was so sad. I thought, they were right all along, I couldnt possibly be happy without the religion. That's what the shunning is about, to try and make you life so miserable you come crawling back. Reality of it all is this board. Look at how many people have gotten through it, started wonderful, new, productive, happy, successful lives. In time it will happen for you too. In the begining it feels like the end of the world. It hurts so much. Trust me when I say it does get easier and things do sort themselves out. I'm the happiest I've ever been now. But it took time. Hang in there.
Oh yeah, and that doesnt work, seriously, check out the strip club