Luke Skywalker
Celtic Mark
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Yet another personality Test-Star Wars
by VeniceIT inhttp://www.sluis-van.com/personality/index.shtml .
i was an r2-d2 type.
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Termite35
by invisible instill not received any email from you.
glad that you enjoyed your holiday down here.
the signs were left for you at the entrance to the maenporth estate and on the bank opposite the bar carpark.
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Still not received any email from you. Glad that you enjoyed your holiday down here. The signs were left for you at the entrance to the Maenporth Estate and on the bank opposite the bar carpark. Probaly still there now.
You enjoyed Durgan Beach then? Thats where I go near enough every single day, its been my quiet place for reflexive meditation for a very long time. Glendurgan Gardens too? I was born in the gardens right next door at Trebah.
Hope to hear you are coming down again soon.
Have a great weekend.
Celtic Mark
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invisible -you have mail -well, possibly...
by termite 35 ini sent you one before i left and have just emailed you now i'm back- did you get it?
i think i'm destined to live in a silent cyber hell for eternity..........?
tell me it worked and i'm not the completely incompetant crappy-at-computers human being i've always suspected i was all along.. hellllooooooo anyone there.................................................................................................................................................................................?help?
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Hello Termite
Not seen your mail no, to which address did you send it?
Did you enjoy your holiday, have a good time, the weather was fairly good wasn't it? Did you go for any walks locally, see the bluebells etc?
I did put a couple of signs out for you opposite the maenporth bar at the entrance to the posh estate above, did you see them at all? My telephone number was on the reverse, so that you could give me a call if you wanted to.
Anyway, speak with you soon, come back again.
Kindest regards
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anger triggers...
by zanex inthis last week some of my mother's family (my gma, gpa, uncle etc) got in contact with me.
they are all non borg and have been anti borg for as long as i can remember but for years i treated them like shit because i was "trained to" but now when i talk to them and hear that they are just normal people with normal lives and i feel very guilty for the way i once treated them.
they dont hold me responsible for any of those actions and always tell me that i am family no matter what.
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How can Jehovah's Witness kids relate to this kind of constant public humiliation? constantly, week in, week out, til life becomes an absolute living hell misery.
Then there was that booklet, Unseen Spirits, Do They Help Us Or Do They Harm Us? At 12 I was so freaked by this study material I was having regular night and daymares, my mother even stopped me from attending the meetings, imagine the confusion weeks later on being returned to the meetings, this material still being published in essence by the same guys.
I say it is absolutely criminal the way that JW kids are forced to grow up without a choice, without a sense of positive self worth, without real praise, with so many beatings and constant humiliation. What do they think they are playing at?
I could rant on all night, but over the years have learn't much more about peaceful relations, on connection to the inner soul, of facing ones demons and telling them to f off.
After I left, I spent the first summer of '95 in a bit of a daze and then rapidly downed as many drug cocktails as possible and in effect danced the anger right out of my system. Yes I know, I'm one of those absolutely crazy contorting dancers that can easily do 14 hours at a stretch, hahhahaha.
Now, I work voluntarily with a well respected UK think tank in issues relating to Social Exclusion, kind of strange life really, when I look back.
Would still love to connect fully by positive pro-active doing my life's goal, I'm narrowing it down, conflict resolution appeals as well as the design of alternative community spaces and designing sculptured acoustic water gardens.
Keep enjoying life!!
You keep your chin up and write if ever you need to.
Celtic
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anger triggers...
by zanex inthis last week some of my mother's family (my gma, gpa, uncle etc) got in contact with me.
they are all non borg and have been anti borg for as long as i can remember but for years i treated them like shit because i was "trained to" but now when i talk to them and hear that they are just normal people with normal lives and i feel very guilty for the way i once treated them.
they dont hold me responsible for any of those actions and always tell me that i am family no matter what.
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Also I had very regular crampings throughout my entire body as muscles spasmed uncontrollably, in the jaw, in the neck, in the stomach, legs you name it, my fingers still get it occassionally, usually when I'm writing.
The physical ailments I believe now might have been linked to the manefestations of what I was being taught on the so called spiritual level. I was convinced as my mother was fond of saying that I was demon possessed. God was obviously punishing me, hated me, didn't want me, so I tried often just to be the sunny good natured boy that I knew I was really, on the inside. But for good I got hit and for bad I got hit harder, in the end I became that confused because I did not know who ME was anymore.
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anger triggers...
by zanex inthis last week some of my mother's family (my gma, gpa, uncle etc) got in contact with me.
they are all non borg and have been anti borg for as long as i can remember but for years i treated them like shit because i was "trained to" but now when i talk to them and hear that they are just normal people with normal lives and i feel very guilty for the way i once treated them.
they dont hold me responsible for any of those actions and always tell me that i am family no matter what.
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Zanex - Thankyou for bringing this up. Celtic here by the way, you may call me whatever, my real name is Mark.
I was extraordinarily angry as a young man. Suffered from multiple personality disorder for years when you would slide into different personas ranging from extremely warm and loving on the one hand and an extreme demonic rage at the other extremity, there were 15 in total and it would take about 45 minutes to complete the scale. At 14 I was smashing, headbutting concrete walls to try to block out the pain I was in. I also had sciatica for many years, similar to explosions going off in your head close to the top of the central nervous system, 5 times a day on average, the pain was absolutely agony almost indescribable.
Cont'd due to prob with pc on thread below
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May Day
by Stephanus inthe day where commie malcontents start rioting and smashing the windows of mcdonald's restaurants everywhere.. here is a poster advertising last years bash that i couldn't resist taking a photo of.
note the spelling of "tyranny" - aren't these guys supposed to be uni students?.
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Celtic.
Did someone just swear in here? Mc, Mc, Mc, I can't even bring myself to speak of that unspeakable company. I absolutely detest McDonalds and would willingly join any anti-global capitalists in tearing them down. Almost as much as ....
In peace
Celtic
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Gee Weez - American Womens Accents - Wowww
by invisible ini'm usually terrified of talking to american ladies on the telephone, then get completely gobsmacked when i hear that gorgeously sexy accent purring down the phone.. does anyone know what i mean?.
if you could specify, which accents from around the world do you enjoy hearing lots of?
can you use words to describe that accent?.
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Gobsmacked - Abject surprise causing mouth to open, drop and close again like a winded goldfish, thats the 'dicky' definition from my mind anyway.
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Should we fear death?
by sleepy inshould we fear death?.
how do you feel about dying?.
after leaving the witnesses i find i am ever more aware of my own mortality.before i could comfort myself with the idea that i could be ressurected.i think the realisation that death will completly end my life , and that there was nothing afterward , was one of the most difficult things to come to terms with.. generally i don't think about it , but when some happens and i do , the idea , quite frankly scares the hell out of me.. but does death really bring the end to us?.
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Should we fear death?
Absolutely not!!
FEAR only = False Evidence Appearing Real.
What's so scary about it anyway? We'll know good and proper at the right time for it, when we come to kick the bucket, whats the point in worrying un-nessarsarily about it in the meantime? There's a whole ruddy great arena of life there for us at the moment.
Keep your chins up.
Celtic
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Make love in the woods on Beltane!
by Sirona inmerry beltane!
(april 30th-may 1st).
in the old celtic times, young people would spend the entire night in the woods "a-maying," and then dance around the phallic maypole the next morning.
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Celtic here Sirona, how ye be ye olde hobbit?
Making love in the woods on Beltane, oh ruddy nora, now you gone and turned me on, fiddlesticks!!
Tumbling through the leaf clutter surrounded by my triad of 3 trees, primroses of purple and yellow hue scattering about. Wild bluebells caressing every nook and cranny, the first leaf cover overhead making a canopy of shining shimmering light, the babbling brook dancing upon its merry way to the warm moist saturation of the wild bog below, where old logs catch the evening sunlight, moss and lichen clinging tenaciously upon textured surface, our fingers entwine, the back arches, the mouth falls open in abandoned esctasy, oh my giddy aunt, thats enough!!
Happy moonbeam dancing, to fertility an all that, rebirth, spring, parties and consultations with the spirits of ancient wisdom.
Onen Hag Oll Mebyon Kernow!!
Much peace
Celtic