WontLeave,
You are in the same difficult situation as I am. I don't sing, dont pray, don't read but only listen on the meetings.
It makes me sad. But I still attend because of my family relations.
Today was a very sad meeting.
A childish explanation why we have to sit when the congregation sings. A disussion about the picture of the article. What boy is good, what boy is bad!
The rank-and-file is eating it like pancake with honey!
I feel - same like you - very alone. Alone. Alone.
And hope and pray my son and daughter (now baby's) will follow higher education and college instead of pionering (...)
I hate this religion but can not escape...