After I was having doubts about the organization, I asked my elder dad:
InOregon: If the WTBS told you it was now time to take up guns and kill the wicked, would you?
Elder dad: They would never ask that.
InOregon: Let's pretend that they do. Would you?
Elder dad: Yes
I asked another elder/pioneer the same question and he also said Yes. That was when I knew for sure I had to run for the hills. People that I liked and respected would blindly do whatever they were asked. That was very hard to handle at the time.