Hi Paulapollos
Do you remember Adrian Robinson. He left the bethel and renounced his eldership in the name of love.(Actually he was given little choice)
The price you pay for follwing in love with a weak sister. Bet his no longer associated with the organisation.
Incidently you are a very lucky man you have your freedoom and you still got a loving wife. You can also( maybe) have something no betherlite can have. A KID
Good luck you are a man of action and action is necessary to defeat the daily assults of fear and worry you may have . I would reccomend" Norman Vincent Peale" his books condition your mind to be positive and enthusiastic about life. All this is supportrd by his belief in God.
Acolytes