Hey brother Jeramy
You make some very good, rational and well considered points.
I do apologise for those instances you have noted in the first four paragraphs of your post above.
It seems to me you are on a journey just like the rest of us.
It also seems to me that you are at a relatively good point on this journey.
We should be able to find it in our hearts to support and encourage each other as we try to make sense of present and past abuse and deception.
If you choose to focus on the Good News (or gospel) according to Paul (and others such as Moses, Isaiah, and Psalms), and if you pursue it relentlessly, you will be truly amazed at where the breathtaking journey takes you.
Greetings and blessings
Fernando
SEQ, Australia