I agree with everyone else...I felt SO guilty about coming to this site. But after my last mtg with the C.O. and a nitwit elder, I just couldn't HELP but start trying to understand WHY the treatment I received was ok...whether other JWs had dealt with it before...and so I fell onto this site. All I did was read for awhile because I was too frightened to post, thinking that I was becoming the ULTIMATE 'apostate' by saying anything on here - but have now come to understand the real deal of JW org.
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Did you ever think you would end up here?
by highdose inmeaning... on this website, no longer a jw or at least no longer beliving anymore?
i never did, even 18 months ago it would have seemed impossible, unthinkable.
even though looking back the seeds of doubt had been sown for some time, i just never allowed myself to think about them... vvv dangerous thing to do!.
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I'm already starting to feel normal
by doublelife infor the first time today, when my boss asked what i'm going to be doing for thanksgiving, i didn't have to go into this awkward explaination of why i don't celebrate it.
i simply said that i'm going over my aunt's.
it may sound trivial but it feels great!
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babygirl30
Today was my 1st time EVER saying
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!
That is a small step, but it just makes me feel like I'm OK...not getting struck by lightening or anything. -hahahaha
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What are you Thankful for this year?
by lovelylil2 inin the spirit of thanksgiving, thought i ask what everyone is thankful for.. i am thankful for my family's good health and happiness, for the great friends i have, for my job that i absolutely love, for celebrating my 7th year of freedom this month from the wt publishing cult.. anyone else?.
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babygirl30
I am thankful that I found the strength to say 'enough' and RUN away from that abusive, self righteous, can't hold a job, living with his parents in the attic at 31, never had any money, blew what lil money he DID have on E&J VSOP, didn't realize what he had in 'me' - NUT that I almost married.
I'm thankful - NOT for being DF'd - but for what being DF'd woke up IN me...cause it gave me the sense to start researching JWs and opening my eyes to how things are done (right or wrong). Finally started seeing the org for what it is.
Thankful for the REAL friends that I have made and the opportunity to get to know my non-JW family closer then ever before. Their support has gotten me through a year that I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy.
I'm grateful that I have a good job that allows me to support myself comfortably and not depend on anyone!
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Pieces fitting together... and crying after hearing Edward Dunlap tape
by Butterflyleia85 incrying out of joy and sadness... wow it was like he was telling me a secret about bethel, i never even knew!!.
i am so emotional right now!!
it's rediculous!.
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I'm gonna listen to this now...thanks for posting it!
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Moses's mistake
by highdose inok heres another thing that always worried and puzzled me... moses made great sacrifices to lead the isrealites and endured great hardship to do so... but he makes one mistake and suddenly all that counts for nothing and he gets no rewards for his pains at all!????!.
this has never seemed fair to me.
basicly what is seems to be saying is that you can lead a exemplary life at great cost to your self, but if you make one mistake... thats it youv'e blown it!.
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PSacramento
I am crackin UP over ur post....that was friggin hilarious!!!!!!! Especially the 'loving' ending of the conversation with a - take that biotch! -hahahaha
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Ms. Bohms first post
by bohm inhey, im bohms girlfriend.. i have been arguing alot with bohm himself about the huge amount of time he spends in here:-) now i've decidet to look it out my self.. about me: i have growen up in the socalled "truth".
i was baptised when i was 18 - because of an earlier boyfriend, who wouldnt be with me when i was not.
now i really hate him for it... it would have been so much easier if ive never got baptised.
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babygirl30
Welcome to the board?
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Were You Proud To Be A Witness?
by minimus inas a kid, i was.
whenever i recieved "persecution", i knew i was doing something good for jehovah.. "worldly" people about my being a jw.. were you proud or ashamed as a witness?.
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babygirl30
I was sort of indifferent - when people would ask what I was, and I told them "a JW", they would inevitably respond with a "I never would've guessed". NOT sure if that meant I was acting worldly or whatever, or if they were just judging me based off how I looked/carried myself. But it never bothered me much.
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Suddenly - JWs are coming at me out of NOWHERE!
by babygirl30 ini have had 2 really nice experiences running into jws recently, and just wanted to share that even though most are still 'stuck up' and make the choice to shun me - there are still some really good ones out there that don't take the org directions on dfing seriously - and those are the ones i respect and continue to hold in high regard:.
1. my buddy that was in my circle of 'friends' when a jw texted me out the blue tues night.
i didn't remember him (saved only his 1st name in my phone) and just could not figure out who it was.
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SixofNine
It's not about exploitation sweetie ... this is BID-NESS!!!!! -hahahahahaha. You got the money or what??
feeling good
You're so right! My gf (who is still 'in') comes to visit me or we will meet up on the LOW...and she begged me the other day to come back cause she was sick of visiting me in SECRET! I just laughed, cause it's sad. I mean we are grown ass women, we've been friends for years, but she is NOT permitted to speak to me in public or be seen with me because of a RELIGION. Doesn't make sense at all. She is a good person at heart and I love her to death, but it's just really sad...like you said.
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Emailed Talk From Governing Body Member Last Weekend
by tryingtoexit inwhat's good a-ebody??
just thought i'd share this email with yall real quick.
it still amazes me that i was a jehovah's witness for 27 years and never thought twice about these types of talks other than i need to make sure my act is together when the end comes, and now i can't even read/hear it without getting mad.
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In other words, he understands real life.
HOW? As part of the GB, he lives in a BUBBLE in NY where everything is taken care of FOR him! And what real life was like back in the 60s/70s is NOT how it is in 2009 - going on '10! And I don't have all the time in the world to do what HE does...nobody bends over backwards for me because I am annointed...
But you know, two years before the bottom fell out, we had a Circuit Assembly about keeping your life simple. Those who followed Jehovah's counsel have avoided so much heartache. So what about today's counsel? The "Time Left is Reduced", is our theme: Will you follow the counsel today? The way you live your life in these hard economic times, does it show you are trusting in Jehovah for your necessities? Or does it show you are trusting in yourself and your material things, and taking matters into your own hands?'
Ok...first of all, even some of those that followed Jehovah's counsel DID get caught up in that housing blowup! Had nothing to do with following a darn thing - it had to do with people living above their means!!! A lot were greedy and wanted huge homes for little money - fine. That's on THEM. But what about the everyday JW that works hard and needed a 'home' for his family...and ended up losing his JOB, so then he couldn't afford to pay for his house? Is that HIS fault? Is he accused of not listening to Jehovah's counsel? He still has to WORK...he still has to provide for his family...he can't just expect Jehovah to rain down Benjamins from the sky so he can make ends meet!! Making such a statement is actually offensive to me. I believe Jehovah supports those that support THEMSELVES...not the ones that expect him to pick up the slack.
Well, you know what, Jehovah may not LIKE the way you are.
This sounds sooooooooooooooooooo much like what the elders tell people in their JC's when they are getting DF'd (Jehovah takes his holy spirit away from you, you are dead to Jehovah, Jehovah has cleaned his house of YOU)...another 'tactic' to either suck you back IN or KEEP you where you are at. This is God he's talking about - what kind of God REALLY would say that to his people? Better yet - who made HIM Jehovah's mouthpiece??????????????????????
I saw only a glimpse of what it will probably be like at Armageddon
Really? So NO ONE knows the date when Armageddon is to come - but HE has seen what is will 'probably' be like? OOOOKKKK!! Where is the humility here - seems like he is making assumptions. What's sad is that when that assumption is dealt from the platform - it becomes 'THE word' on all...
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Suddenly - JWs are coming at me out of NOWHERE!
by babygirl30 ini have had 2 really nice experiences running into jws recently, and just wanted to share that even though most are still 'stuck up' and make the choice to shun me - there are still some really good ones out there that don't take the org directions on dfing seriously - and those are the ones i respect and continue to hold in high regard:.
1. my buddy that was in my circle of 'friends' when a jw texted me out the blue tues night.
i didn't remember him (saved only his 1st name in my phone) and just could not figure out who it was.
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Ok...well then....may I kindly have your cc#, billing address, and full name on the card? Oh - and do NOT forget the 3-digit security code on the back. Once I've processed ur cards, the pics are YOURS!!!!!