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  Why I remain one of Jehovah's Witnesses

  by Brother Jeramy in

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  allow me to begin with a clarification: when i say i am one of jehovah's witnesses, i don't mean that i am an advocate of the watchtower society or a devotee of some of its more controversial false teachings.

  i mean that i am a christian, a disciple of jesus christ dedicated to jehovah god, and who remains in union with my brothers and sisters who make up the family of faith that globally refers to itself as jehovah's witnesses.

  some totally understand the distinction between the family of brothers and sisters and the corporate organization known as the watchtower society (wts).

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  I love and believe in Jehovah God and his son Jesus. But I have chosen to be spiritual (in my beliefs and actions) instead of religious. Staying an active JW - active meaning still fully participating in all required activities - would make you religious, in my opinion. One thing that confused me about your post is that you happily admit being part of the org , yet claim not to believe in the 'org'? That's like me going to crackhouse, eating and drinking with the residents, but not doing crack - yet claiming 'I'm not part of that crackhouse'. Does that make any sense?

  I guess the question I most want to understand is that if you are unapologetic as a JW ,why come to a site and "announce" your stance - to 95% of us ex-JW's? And please understand that to most of us, there is no distinction between your JW status (brotherhood...sisterhood...etc). If you go, and you participate, you ARE.
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  Reflecting on my Disfellowshipping

  by kairos in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  today is the day.. i was baptized as one of jehovah's witnesses on march 25th 1989.disfellowshipped for admitted apostasy today, september 10th 2015.. what an amazing story we all share.

  how did we get involved with this group and think this was the best way of life?.

  i asked my wife to stay home from the meeting tonight and spend the evening with me.she is.... we celebrated our 19th wedding anniversary this past monday.. i must admit, i never saw any of this coming, but it couldn't have come sooner.i'm free of all the fake friendships.

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  Congrats on leaving (no matter the circumstance) and for realizing what TTATT really is!! It is refreshing, yet disheartening - in how we are treated once we leave. But good luck in your growth as a free person!
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  Conditioned to fail

  by Jordandemm in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  just want to say hi and a big thank you to all that post in this site.

  it has been extremely tough waking up as a born.

  but in slowly removing any doubts about leaving this man made religion.

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  I sent my reply too quick!!! My point was - keep TRYING. It is a serious adjustment, one that people who were not raised like us will never ever understand. I always felt like I was crazy...trying to explain my upbringing. But you are right, the conditioning is an epic F.A.I.L...

  We had no 'real' clue what we were facing when we left the Khall behind.
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  Conditioned to fail

  by Jordandemm in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  just want to say hi and a big thank you to all that post in this site.

  it has been extremely tough waking up as a born.

  but in slowly removing any doubts about leaving this man made religion.

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  babygirl30

  Honestly, I never had any issue making friends. I guess I've always been naturally extroverted - that I had 'worldly' friends since I got out of high school. I refused to separate myself 100% from coworkers and all, and that is how I built relationships with people. But I admit to being socially 'naieve' in a sense, because I had NO idea how the other side lived!
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  Just lost one more friend

  by paradisebeauty in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  i used to talk weekly on skype, with a sister from another country.

  i didn't tell her much about my research and change of beliefs, until today ... in the conversations some doctrines came up and i told her i don't believe 1914, first, then i went on to tell her that i also don't believe there are 2 classes of christians, that i did not believe the government of the kingdom will be in heaven while the kingdom en earth, that i believe the whole kingdom will be on earth, and that from what i read, jesus was pretty clear that he will come back to earth, visibly.

  the "god always had an organization" dogma was dropped and i told her it is not true, out of 9000 years of human history, it's not sure there were 1000 years when god had a loyal organization ..... i did not plan to tell her all this things, but it just happened, and things came up in the conversation... and once i dropped one bomb i dropped them all .... she said i do not sound like i am one of the jehovah's witnesses any more ... and even though we ended the call with "see ya" i have the feeling i will not hear from her any more ... .

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  Im sorry about this...I guess we get SO excited to have someone we can 'express' our beliefs to - that it scares them off. Ironically, they feel they can express themselves to everyonr else, and no one bats an eye
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  If you could name the theme of an assembly what would it be???

  by karter in

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  divine boredom.

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  Twerkin (It) for Everlaating Life
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  The Heartless JW

  by babygirl30 in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  soooo...i have recently been diagnosed with an autoimmune disease, and am scared out of my mind.

  in a weak moment, i called my parents and my mom answered.

  i start crying as i tell her about my disease, and this woman says to me:.

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  I feel much better today, and all of YOUR have assisted in that change-over. I was such a MESS yesterday, and rightly so. Every time my parents have been given a 'life line' into my life, they toss it right back. My cousins untimely death - they ignored me. My family reunion - they walked right by me as if I didn't exist. And now this! I called one of my aunts and she really surprised me, she got ANGRY and told me that the rest of the family loves me, and she even offered to come stay with me to take care of me - if needed. She made me cry even more! My boyfriend even comforted me last night, and he too has agreed to go gluten free with me. So the support is THERE - just not from the 2 people most human beings would expect it from...
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  The Heartless JW

  by babygirl30 in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  soooo...i have recently been diagnosed with an autoimmune disease, and am scared out of my mind.

  in a weak moment, i called my parents and my mom answered.

  i start crying as i tell her about my disease, and this woman says to me:.

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  babygirl30

  The thing with me is, I dont want to have to manipulate the situation to get my parents involved. It is the equivalent of being with man for 10yrs and browbeating him to marry you, you leave him in an attempt to 'convince' him he needs you, then he comes crawling back. To me, if he really wanted yo marry you - no browbeating would be necessary. Same with my mom (folks). If anything, I want natural affection to take over...not all of that background work.

  Dont get me wrong, I lovr your idea though!!!
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  The Heartless JW

  by babygirl30 in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  soooo...i have recently been diagnosed with an autoimmune disease, and am scared out of my mind.

  in a weak moment, i called my parents and my mom answered.

  i start crying as i tell her about my disease, and this woman says to me:.

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  babygirl30

  I have to thank each of you for responded, let alone in kind! I sat here with the phone in my hand crying...letting it all sink in. Then I got on this site and purged it - I had to. You can't make this shit UP!!! People would never understand the cruelty of having a parent disregard you when you are at a low point. I hear stories everyday at work of how this person hung out with their mom, or this person went on vacation with their parents...and in my head, I want that too. And its retarded to have to feel "left out" because my parents follow a cult.
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  The Heartless JW

  by babygirl30 in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  soooo...i have recently been diagnosed with an autoimmune disease, and am scared out of my mind.

  in a weak moment, i called my parents and my mom answered.

  i start crying as i tell her about my disease, and this woman says to me:.

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  babygirl30

  This is the same woman who I saw at my cousins funeral and she commented to my aunt that I "got really big" and claimed she didnt recognize me! So now that I finally know WHY I am so big (thyroid autoimmune disease) - she acts like she doesnt care. I take that back. It isnt an act. It is who she is now...a heartless JW.

  It's my own fault for reaching out. I KNOW better!!! I set myself up for this, and as expected, got let down. So really, the blame is mine. After dealing with her and my fathers bullshit all these years and ignoring me as if I dont exist, I have to admit that her response cut deep! But I am calm enough now to rationalize her behavior and see her cultish ways.