I must say, you reminded me of many things in my own life. Especially when you said you wanted to "go where the need was great." I grew up in Compton where in a matter of a few years the congregations kept dividing almost every 3 or 4 years. Our territory was worked every week. So those wanting to pioneer and hoping to do more than spend hours standing in front of some store would seek to go "where the need was greater." So when I was 16 I arranged to go to Arkansas where I knew a brother who had gone to "where the need was greater." But that summer was eventful. I think I was a regular pioneer too at the time (I pioneered while I was in the 9th grade). That is the summer when I think what is described as "make the truth YOUR OWN" happened. I connected more directly with the Bible and Jehovah and the WTS became less of a mediator for me. Of course, there was lots and lots of personal study.
I wasn't much of a follower though and sort of had a knack of seeing errors. Once I wrote the Society about an error they had made in the Watchtower. They acknowledged the error and told me to "correct my personal copy" and generally the local brothers were not happy about my pointing out the error. So I had the advantage of not being all that impressed with the WTS. I was old enough in the truth to know how many changes they made so figured that's just the way it goes. The light gets brighter. But that also means if I see something I think might be wrong, I can accept the WTS will just need to correct it later. It didn't mean they were not Jehovah's organization.
Also, I was very impressed with the spiritual or I should say, "spiritistic" concepts going on at Headquarters. I was on tour and in New York and visited Bethel. I had always wanted to do so since childhood. I was alone so I got my personal guide. He told me that the site where Brooklyn Bethel was is the site where George Washington crossed over at a critical time that ended up helping to win the war so that America could be a place where freedom of religion could flourish which was necessary for the organization. But he told me Jehovah had caused a thick fog to arise at that very spot to help George Washington. That spiritual level of the anointed brothers who believes Jehovah interacts with holy spirit directly with them seemed to stand out. I often wonder what it is like in that pretigious company on a daily basis. I did also visit the library as well.
But it makes sense the Writing Committee ends up doing most of the writing since they have so much to cover with the bi-weekly magazines. If I had questions I directed it to the Writing Committee. Of course, they were consistently rude in their replies and often sent copies to the local congregation. They were so apostate paranoid.
Anyway, at least you're out. I became anointed in the summer of 1992 and Jehovah "disfellowshipped" the GB on November 10, 1992. Unfortunate. But, they've become the evil slave so that's the way it goes. It's just a farce organization now.
I know, because of the impact of the WTS that when people leave, they don't seem to join other religions. Some maintain their faith in God independently, but many tend to take a secularist concept and stop believing. I can see how one can be pushed in that direction if the organization you believed was the "true religion" failed in that regard, and others as well, offer little. Because I had a closer personal relationship with Jehovah and only a relative devotion to the WTS I could bear the arrangement without losing my faith in Jehovah. I saw the organization as imperfect yet chosen, like the Jews. Once becoming anointed, though, the relationship with Jehovah is more direct and only technically connected to the organization, so I was fortunate in that sense, that I didn't lose faith in the reality of God or that the Bible was his word. But I'm such an extremist! I got through it because I'm profoundly absolute and was more studious than many. It wasn't good enough just to cover the material, I had to understand it and "make it my own." It got me into trouble, made me not that popular, but certainly has paid off in the end because I still have my faith in Jehovah and the Bible. I know--"good for ME" but, well, I'm happy.
Take care. Thanks, again for sharing!
JohnC
JohnC