Huge sense of relief, I can do so many things now GUILT FREE YAY!
However, I still struggle massively with death. Not so much the long & happy life well lived, surrounded by friends & family pain free kind of death. But the unjust death
Of the murder victim
Of the child with cancer
Of the young slave who died under the lash
Those who disappeared in the gulags or camps
Of the pig or monkey whose only life has been lived in a cage filled with cruelty
The still born baby
The generations of our ancestors whose lives were nasty, brutish & short
Cheerful sort, aren't I?