I'm another late bloomer....caught at 38 and unexpectedly pregnant with twins!
I look back at my thoughts to never bring children into this wicked system..but also because my self esteem was zero thinking I was too imperfect to have kids, too evil, thanks to childhood indoctrination, anyway it fills me with utter horror that I may not have brought my beautiful boys into this hard, yes at times painful but ultimately wonderful world..given them a shot at life...giving life, bringing forth life...words fail me.
Of all the evils the org has brought upon the trusting ones childlessness is what angers me most, we all have our pet hate and this is mine.and I literally weep with Alive! and others betrayed so scandeously, so evilly, to play on their selflessness like that...it denies not just the parents but EVERYBODY joy.