I totally relate to being the kid who HAS to look every single word up - the more obscure and bizzaro the better!
And you know what? It really works! I was tested and had a reading age of 17 when I was 10.
The shaggy cat tail was.....stupendous!! Incredibly emotional. I don't know how old you were when you lost your mother. Her loss may go some way to explain why you became a jw.