Posts by doublelife

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I just watched The Matrix last night...

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and i understand now what everyone means when they talk about taking the red pill.

creepy.

especially when laurence fishburn's character tells keanu reeves' character, "welcome to reality.

doublelife

Thanks for everyone's movie suggestions. I'll have to watch those too.

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I just watched The Matrix last night...

by doublelife in

and i understand now what everyone means when they talk about taking the red pill.

creepy.

especially when laurence fishburn's character tells keanu reeves' character, "welcome to reality.

doublelife

Darth plaigeis: Lol. My husband told me the same thing.

Heaven: I noticed the name of the ship too. Very interesting.

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I just watched The Matrix last night...

by doublelife in

and i understand now what everyone means when they talk about taking the red pill.

creepy.

especially when laurence fishburn's character tells keanu reeves' character, "welcome to reality.

and I understand now what everyone means when they talk about taking the red pill. Creepy. Especially when Laurence Fishburn's character tells Keanu Reeves' character, "Welcome to reality." My whole life I've been living in a fantasy world. And now that I've taken the red pill I'm living in reality.

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I finally did it

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friends

i told my mom that i'm not going back to the meetings.

i wasn't planning on telling her that but i've been going through some hard times with my husband and just got fed up with her hounding me.

so she asked if i'll still consider going back to the meetings and i just flat out told her no and that it wasn't up for discussion.

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moshe:

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I finally did it

by doublelife in

jw
friends

i told my mom that i'm not going back to the meetings.

i wasn't planning on telling her that but i've been going through some hard times with my husband and just got fed up with her hounding me.

so she asked if i'll still consider going back to the meetings and i just flat out told her no and that it wasn't up for discussion.

doublelife

Think About It: Thanks.

A.Fenderson: Difficult with my mom? I guess it is but I'm too distracted by other things going on in my life right now to give it much thought.

jwfacts: "cutting the apron strings" I've never heard that expression but I understand it. I do feel like a different person after this. I feel more like an adult now.

jamiebowers: Thanks!

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I finally did it

by doublelife in

jw
friends

i told my mom that i'm not going back to the meetings.

i wasn't planning on telling her that but i've been going through some hard times with my husband and just got fed up with her hounding me.

so she asked if i'll still consider going back to the meetings and i just flat out told her no and that it wasn't up for discussion.

doublelife

Thanks, peaches.

Cadellin: clarity, that's the right word. It's becoming easier to breath.

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If You Weren't In Rapt Attention What Did You Think About During The Meetings?

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i used to think of leaving early.

at the end i started making excuses to leave (supposedly work related) so that i could just get out of there.

i wanted a drink!.

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"I rarely paid alot of attention. I had a whole fantasy world going on, usually rated R or higher."

Same here.

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I finally did it

by doublelife in

jw
friends

i told my mom that i'm not going back to the meetings.

i wasn't planning on telling her that but i've been going through some hard times with my husband and just got fed up with her hounding me.

so she asked if i'll still consider going back to the meetings and i just flat out told her no and that it wasn't up for discussion.

doublelife

Scarred for life: Thanks. I'm excited about pet sitting but nervous at the same time because I'll be running my own business.

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I finally did it

by doublelife in

jw
friends

i told my mom that i'm not going back to the meetings.

i wasn't planning on telling her that but i've been going through some hard times with my husband and just got fed up with her hounding me.

so she asked if i'll still consider going back to the meetings and i just flat out told her no and that it wasn't up for discussion.

doublelife

Roddy: Right now, I live in an apartment where each individual building is gated so the hounders won't be able to get to me. When I'm able to move out on my own I will have someone pretend to be an elder an get my publisher card for me. I might have to ask someone on this board for help with that. Then I won't ever have to worry about visits.

I quit!: Thanks. That's so true.

shamus100: Thanks for the advise and enouragment. I'm not looking forward to the rocky patches but I know that it's going to happen. I'm trying to brace myself now so that I can deal with it.

OTWO: I'm glad things are working out for you and your mom.

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I finally did it

by doublelife in

jw
friends

i told my mom that i'm not going back to the meetings.

i wasn't planning on telling her that but i've been going through some hard times with my husband and just got fed up with her hounding me.

so she asked if i'll still consider going back to the meetings and i just flat out told her no and that it wasn't up for discussion.

doublelife

Mad Sweeney: "What I hate about this stage of fading (we're in fairly similar places, doublelife) is that suddenly all the attention you get from Dubs is based around the fact that you're "spiritually sick" and "need encouragement" when in reality you just want freedom from those sorts of value judgments."

OMG! You've described what's happening perfectly. I didn't realize it is because of the stage of fading I'm in. And the attention isn't only coming from my family. One of my jw conditional friends sent me a message on facebook saying that she wants to hang out with me. This happened the day after I had this conversation with my mom. Ugh!