EdenOne you brought me memories of the missery of getting over chickenpox I had them the summer after graduating from High School probably the worst summer of my life. I've still got some pock marks to show for it.
I'm very sorry to hear about your experience with the conditional love JW's practice. They can't help themselves, they're like animatrons, they've forgotten how to act like human beings, and only feel what they're allowed to as they obey obey obey the WT hierarchy. Best you can hope for is that some of them aren't totally mind controlled and do show some human emotion.
Take care of yourself. I wish you better times ahead. And I like the therapy prescribed by brandnew, it may not cure everything but it sure helps get over life's rough territories.