Leaving the organisation is very much a mourning process I don't think I'm quite through it yet. I know for certain that this is not God's mouthpiece on Earth and I know that they are wrong. I feel sorry for nice people who like me believe a lie but cannot see it. I don't feel sorry for those lording it over the flock since it is these very ones that help people see the light. Long may they prosper.
I feel more for other people and the impact my leaving the organisation would have on them. I am a bit like a bee in a jar desperate to be out but not yet in a position to be free.