do you ever feel like that?.
i,ve just attended my own funeral, well it might as well have been .. i'm now nonexistant in my former friends eyes.. they have to stay away , i'm a danger to them.. so i can now count on one hand how many friends i have 2 , including my wife.. the other friend has also left the truth but i dont see him much as he lives in another town .. so since i work on my own i'm going to be pretty lonely for a while .. no more weekends down the pub or staying down anyones house.. i wonder whats on telly.. er nothing..oh crap.. well there always next door cat i wonder if hes good at conversation..here kitty , kitty.
Dearest sleepy,
Believe me i understand, but cheer up. It only gets better. You wil realize that those who do not speak to you are not your real friends. The friends you will meet are better and are true. a real friend sticks through thick and thin and not based on religion. You should be you and not what they want of you. If you ever need to chat i am here.
Jen
well i guess i am not the only one.
here is my story.
i dont know where to begin.
Well i guess i am not the only one. Here is my story. I dont know where to begin. My mom has been a JW for over 30 years now. My dad a strong catholic. My dad left my mom for a year or so when she first started. But being a family man he went back to raise and support his family. My brother and I had to attend the hall till we were 18, then we could choose what we wanted to do, stay in or out. Me i chose to get baptized at 12. Not knowing anything. As i got older my eyes began to open. You start to see what really goes on and hw they really are. They always claimed they never try to brainwash or that they are a cult. But i believe both. My mom told me she didnt want to have anything to do with me six months before my wedding. Taking into consideration she was speaking to me and my hsuband for the first 3 years we were together. Go figure. The elders found out i was getting married and put a bug in her ear, as well as other family members. They were told if they went to my wedding they would have there priveledges taken away. Come on now. They were spitefull because they couldnt disfellowship me. They had nothing against me. No my mother wont even eat dinner with me. My father after 37 years of marriage wasnts a divorce, and i support him. After all the years growing up and listening to my mother telling us how she was keeping the family together and How she was sarificing so much. Now i see, my dada was the one. He gave up birthdays and christmas, all the holidays to make this marriage work and raise the family, and in the mean time my mother trying to take all the credit. Oh she had it so hard, she never even had to work a day in her life. Now i have pity on her. She never saw me get married, she will never see her grandkids, and she will never get my help if she needs it. I dont even feel guilty about any of it. She chose this path not satan as she likes to blame it on.Everyone chooses there own path ad she has chosen hers. I was so angry i was gonna go to the elders, but i mean come on, what would it prove, nothing. They will never change. They have no respect for women or family values. unless it is convienent for them. The prey on desperate people who are going through a really hard time in life. And my mom being one of them. K ser ra ser ra i say. The High family values they preach keeps desroying familys lives. They really pulled a fast one on me in the beginning but now i have never saw so clearly. Boy oh boy the storied i have.
Jen
