As a born in I can relate to all of what you said. I look back now and it makes me sick to know I was raised being a JW. I still constantly get guilt trips from my mom (which don't work anymore) and my sisters rarely speak to me. It took a long time to finally learn how to be happy with my life. To this day, I just wish I could have a "normal" relationship with my family but we all know that will not happen. So many parents think they are doing the best things for their kids by raising them JW's but it is abuse.
How is it right that a 7 or 8 year old kid has to leave the classroom when the other kids are singing happy birthday and having a pizza party? I ALWAYS had to go outside the classroom for birthday parties at school while all the other kids were laughing and eating pizza and cake, I was sitting out in the hallway alone..
As I got older I learned how to play the JW game.. Say what needed to be said and do what needed to be done but at the same time having my little fun every now and then..