Dear Weeping,
It seems that you have a very one sided view of the World which springs from the JW tendency to blame all bad occurences on Satan and then give praise to Jehovah for all positive events and experiences.
Yes the Org can feel like a safe loving place when being out in the world has been such a nightmare, however, the reason your time in the world was so awful was because of bad choices not Satan. Had you made different choices your experiences would have been very different and possibly a lot more positive.
I read a great book a long time ago called "You can heal your life". It helped me to take responsibility for my actions, take control and stop blaming others.
There are good and bad things about the JW Org, but for me personally the bad things have outweighed the good. I cannot support or teach others doctrines that I do not agree with and feel are ultimately harmful.