GIftsinmen, I am sorry that you had to endure the lies of the WTS. Some people have found comfort in reading the bible without the distortions, half truths/half lies and out right manipulation that the WTS inserts in the true word of God.
You;ll probably find that you have to overcome thoughts and ideas that have been crammed down your throat for years. With time and research, you'll find that you'll be able to move on and find a balance of life and prayer.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and everyone else who now feels "Where could I go?"
Answer= forward