I hurt for you dub. I'm sorry to hear about your fathers passing. I don't fully know your family dynamics but allow yourself to grieve in your own way. I'm sorry that once again your remaining family have pushed you away. I do hope you can heal from this and move forward which you seem to be doing already.
In the words of one of my favorite artist Lauryn Hill : "Forgive them Father for They Know not What They Do."
Forgive them for their ways because unfortunately they are captives of WT ideology.
Sending Big hugs your way MAN! Enjoy your trip this weekend enjoy the nature and clear your head.
Lost-wun