Im sure my readings would be all over the place too. Blood was never a big concern of mine. It was always the theocratic aspect that bothered me: the keeping of field service time, the climbing of ranks in the org, the taking of every word written in the publications as coming from god himself and stuff of that sort. Growing up I never received satisfying answers when I brought up these issues. it was always drilled in us kids to never question authority, be obedient and be a good little submissive girl.
I think we are constantly told to "make the truth our own" but really for them its not about us having our own faith its about shutting your pie hole and believing whatever the hell they tell you to believe. Oh and don't forget if you do you'll be blessed!
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