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i designed a 4 question personality test that looks at the simple ways you listen to music.. it can determine from those questions your 4 letter mbti code.

from there i included some fun links that goes deeper into the personality traits.. i have yet to try this in a larger forum such as this but was wondering the results and if i can develope this.. .

it may prove useful in my eventual psychology studies.. just follow the link.

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E/ISFP on that~ had to laugh at #3, that is 100% right on for me...it's kind of obsessive, I will listen to a song I love over and over LOL!

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one hot, hot thursday, in july of 1987, i worked a half day, drove from wilcox county to mobile county to pick up a sister, then hit i-10 for new orleans to attend the convention which began the next day.. the evening traffic was unbelievable; when i finally arrived and pulled into our hotel parking lot, i was shaking like a leaf in the wind.

we checked in, and after showering, i fell into bed and slept like a drunk person.. the next morning, friday, was a complete blur as we made our way to the superdome.

i don't remember anything that was discussed that day, just the searing heat as we returned to the hotel.. after a long shower, i again fell into a deep slumber.

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I can relate with what Walt Whitman said about the taking notes and such..I was totally into it growing up, it was exciting for me to go to conventions and see a vast sea of others who I felt were like me. It felt like this had to be the truth..just look at all the people, and to think, this is happening all around the world, and in many different languages..wow..what a united brotherhood! I totally bought into the whole experience. Helped make the sandwiches "with love", I gave a few assembly experiences later on, totally and completely into it.

The few assemblies I took my little ones to were very different. I now had the responsibility of caring for them, so the reality of how difficult a thing the "Brothers" were asking of us sunk in. I remembere asking myself how they could expect this of us all. I would look around to see the expressions on others faces...and sure enough, many looked tired, bored, figity, overall frustrated. I dont know how my parents managed all those years. They sure were 'faithful' sad to say

...wow it's a trip remembering all that

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~Moving forward..searching for a good therapist~

by freeflyingfaerie in

alright, that's it!

after writing this, i am on a serious search for a good therapist~.

i've been coming here on and off for a little over a year now(wish i had found it sooner) ...for validation and clarity in my feelings about how hurtful the religion is...so i don't feel so alone about it, and so i don't feel like i am losing my mind~.

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Thanks for understanding

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~Moving forward..searching for a good therapist~

by freeflyingfaerie in

alright, that's it!

after writing this, i am on a serious search for a good therapist~.

i've been coming here on and off for a little over a year now(wish i had found it sooner) ...for validation and clarity in my feelings about how hurtful the religion is...so i don't feel so alone about it, and so i don't feel like i am losing my mind~.

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Hi talesin~

I asked him about having any experience w the religion. He said he has seen several people who were JW. He knew some of the lingo, realises I was brainwashed and sheltered..it went pretty well

And everyone~

I have to retract here and clarify...this is not my very first therapy session ever. Sorry if I was misleading. This is the first time I'm considering therapy to get it all out, not like before when I was in a crisis. There were about 3 sessions I went to with my ex-husband when we tried to reconcile. It was a nitemare, the therapist helped me confirm my decision to leave him once and for all. She was a life saver. She was there to help me see clearly during that crisis. But since then, after detoxing my life from that, the drama wasn't there, so I didnt consider therapy again, I hadn't really wanted to really give it a try.. until recently.

And its in such a different context. It is the calm after the storm in a way. I'm not looking for a way out of a crisis, or anwers to life's most perplexing questions, no urgency...just a good sounding board..and to help to keep processing all that has happened these past several years especially. Sorry if I am confusing. The therapist we saw was during an extremely intense time, so it seemed like life-or-death and it was a sort-of emergency. Then when I left, I had a few phone sessions with her. This may seem strange, but it was almost like once she had helped me out of that crisis initially, that's all I wanted, and didn't see myself wanting her or another therapist to walk me through life. I didn't want to have to be helped. I did'n't want to hear structure so much. I wanted to figure things out myself.

Couple that with getting back on my feet, which was very energy consuming,and was occupying me. Also I was finding other outlets, other ways to heal that felt right. In the back of my mind i thought of therapy, but didn't want any 'conventional' type of influence in my life like therapy(even though it did help me through the super-rough waters). I wanted to do things on my own, and it felt powerful. And I still feel that way, but looking back, I see the value of a therapist. So that brings me to now, its trying a therapist in a whole new way

If you made it through that, hope your head is not spinning

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Her name is "Yamin"

by possible-san in

her name is "yamin.".

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tihllolqgv0.

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How sweet!

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~Moving forward..searching for a good therapist~

by freeflyingfaerie in

alright, that's it!

after writing this, i am on a serious search for a good therapist~.

i've been coming here on and off for a little over a year now(wish i had found it sooner) ...for validation and clarity in my feelings about how hurtful the religion is...so i don't feel so alone about it, and so i don't feel like i am losing my mind~.

freeflyingfaerie

Stephanie H~

You really are a sweety. That might have sounded aloof what I said about therapy and also my family..in actuality, I try not to care so much, because it gets to be really heavy..still learning to let go, still learning balance in all of this. I hope the best for you in your college, you'll be wonderful, especially having experienced the pain yourself.

The religion really hits you where it hurts. They know people's needs to have closeness with the ones we love and they sure use that as a weapon to prey on our emotions. And knowing this gives me all the more reason to be happy to not be a part of it. The religion will never have the satisfaction of using my family and friends to get me to come back, as much as it pains me to miss them all.

This is a most hurtful aspect of cultish mind-workings.

Thanks again for the supportive comments, i really do appreciate it

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Personality test based on how you listen to music

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Saturday Morning Musings ...

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~Moving forward..searching for a good therapist~

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~Moving forward..searching for a good therapist~

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Her name is "Yamin"

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Please Do a 13-Word Sentence Describing How You Feel Right Now

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Please Do a 13-Word Sentence Describing How You Feel Right Now

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