The ONLY way I could rationalize the things that happened in the Bible (Abraham willing to sacrifice his son, killing people only because they weren't Isrealites...list goes on and on) was because I was a JW and I believed God to be a God of love and I better not question him. (Which in itself is completely wrong...I mean if he is a God of Love then ANY questioning I have at all...should be ok with him. But that is neither here nor there)
Once the Blinders came off with regard to the TTATT, what did that leave me with? I had been lied to my whole life! If the JWs could change the Bible to fit their beliefs, then why couldn't someone else? It still left all the things that happened in the bible that IMO a 'God of Justice, Love, Wisdom and Power' would never do...
Therefore, it isn't that big a jump from being a JW to then deciding everything is a farce and simply a means for controlling the masses. Is there a God? It takes faith to believe that...and sadly...my faith in God is what that religion has taken away from me. Part of me WANTS to believe...but because of them I don't know if that will ever be possible again.
Does anybody else feel that way?